Withdrawal? Hope I am not the only way going through this

Hi everyone,

I am a 21 year old who has been in and out of trying to reboot for awhile now, but has never been successful. Currently on a 10 day streak, which is great! I really want to do it all the way this time because I have been hit by very serious erectile dysfunction a few weeks ago. I was masturbating and watching porn at that time, but my dick just went limp one day and I could never get it hard since then. Not the first time this happened, but previous times, my dick would return to normal after awhile. Also, I still tried masturbating with this problem and even ejaculating with a semi-erect dick. I really dunno the implications of this... And is this PIED? Because I can't get hard at all - with or without porn.

Another worrying thing is that I started having heart palpitations and racing heart beat. It has been on and off during this whole period, but when it hits it is really bad. Yesterday, it happened during my sleep and I was woken up, sweating madly. I know this is a withdrawal symptom from nofap, but also worried that it could be an underlying health or mental problem (Because I am naturally an anxious person).

Perhaps someone out here might have a similar experience and could just offer me some adivce? Just wanted to share this as I have been struggling during this period.

 

Thank you for the support guys Just reporting back that I am still keeping to the streak. Have been getting some morning wood again so hope that is a sign for the better. Erection still weak but I have to give that time. Anxiety is getting better, feeling pretty calm these few days.

 

Today was supposed to be a great day. Finished watching a drama and had some really good stuff throughout the day. But cldn't sleep and relapsed just now... Trying to comfort myself that it wasn' a serious mistake. I had gone 20 days hard mode already. But gave in to the temptation to M. Still cldn't achieve a hard erection. ED has gone on for more than a month now... I really believe it's PIED. And the way out is to just finish the reboot. I am just feeling quite hopeless now. Please let my erections come back

 

So I am not gonna wallow on that small blip. Day 3 of the new streak. I probably shouldn't focus that much on the days, and only take note when my erections get better.

Another update is that I saw a heart specialist last week as I was still having palpitations from time to time. Had a panic attack when I was about to see the doc and my heart beat and blood pressure was dam high. But the ecg test showed that i was fine! At least thankful that it is not a physical problem. And I took the heart palpitation medicines the doc gave for the first time today. It rly soothe my racing heart. But I know I cant rely on the meds and need to adjust my thoughts and emotions too. I just hope I can do that.

 

While I did get my heart checked and it's fine, everyday still seems like a fking struggle. Apart from my heart, i have had a lot of other weird but still uncomfortable symptoms. For example, my ear has been feeling blocked from time to time. Got that checked, no problem with ear. Then ytd suddenly felt some tightness in the chest and a little short on breath. Really don't know when the discomfort will end and it's really breaking me. Esp now that we are on lockdown and I am with my mom all the time and shes seeing me suffer like this. And I can't explain to her that this is a possible cause.

 

On a positive note, things have been looking better since my last post. Most of the withdrawal symptoms seem to somewhat gone. Busy at work and also enjoying gaming with friends. Physically, there have been some spontaneous erections. But when did I small erection test on myself it was still weak. And penis still pretty shrivelled most of the time. This time it's really going the distance. I have to stick with it to return to normalcy.

 

Yup i believe so, although i do play quite a bit of computer games but i i think i i have good control over that.

 

Ya I would think that is the case. Thanks for sharing these posts too!

 

Updates: Hit the 30-day mark yay, which is definitely the first goal for me. Was in quite a flatline last week. Penis was shrivelled and almost no erections. Had wet dreams though.

However, felt slightly horny when i i shower just now and i did touched my penis a bit to test for erection. Still quite poor, but my penis felt like it was going to burst? Fortunately, no orgasm or anything. Wondering if that is a sign of anything. But definitely still gotta keep this up until the erections are back!

 

Updates: Feels like another month has passed (not really keeping track of the days anymore). Sadly, my condition is more or less unimproved. Penis is dead, morning woods have been non existent. If this a flatline, it's a really long one. Fortunately, the dead penis means that I have no reason to watch porn. I feel that I have definitely reduced my addiction. There were times of cravings and horniness, but even if I tried to masturbate I couldn't. So there hasn't even been PMO.. only one or two wet dreams. I know there's no other way but to keep persevering through this. I just hope I see the light soon.