Accountability for All

Just finished day 1.

 

Day 2 completed wake up early today making this an habit all the best to you all looking forward for day 3

 

Day 2 completed. Going to work on fixing my sleep schedule and organizing/structuring my daily habits tomorrow.

 

Day 3 done.

 

Ok I am surging. I saw a neighbor in a bikini top gardening. I'm trying not to fap or go to a park and look around. I'm trying to think of her as a woman. She has a day off and is gardening

 

Stroking won't make me happy

 

Day 3 done looking towards day 4

 

Still surging from the 'sexy' neighbour. Today I will avoid fapping or peeking. Imagine how she would feel to be watched by a stranger vs chatting to her friendly.

 

Planning to go for walks and also do my kegel excersizes and also play badminton.

 

Day 4 completed 4/90

 

Ok

About to go to sleep. Trying my best not to fap tomorrow.

I recall how successful I was with girls before fb

I will contact

Indian girl
Sadie
Elen
Pol
Kinv
Salzberg
And see their responses. So glad I gave up fleshlights

 

Day 4 finished.

 

Day 3 going strong

 

Just woke up in the middle of night like its 1 am pacific time and started watching P and M .
Good thing is that that was the longest (3) days that i was able to remain sober in a long time.
Time to reset.

 

Ok today I will not masturbate over the hot neighbour. There are many other hot girls. What makes her special - has she even liked me?? I may talk to her if she is gardening the front. But otherwise I will not touch my manhood. I have man other girls to email and chat to today.

 

Ok surging again...I'm having a good chat with a girl at work. Not touching my penis.i will retain the semen

 

I still have a few more girls to message. I am also painting a model bus

 

I hate myself . Ended up doing two times yesterday night and then enabled filtering on my router and just now disabled filtering and did PMO one more time. Please help!

 

Add consequences to a relapse. Meaning every time you relapse you will do X, Y, Z. For example, I have to do only cold showers for 30 days and with every relapse I've added another filter to my laptop (my only access to porn). As a result I have 3 filters now. I'd have to reinstall windows to get back to porn. This may sound severe to some, but I know I'm severely addicted.

If you are able to easily disable filtering on your router then it's not really a filter.

 

I hate myself. Just ended up doing PMO one more time