[30-CHALLENGE] THE THIRTY DAYS CHALLENGE !

day 5 complete
feeling minimal urges

 

Day 2/30

 

DAY 2

STORY OF MY ADDICTION-

I liked watching movies sometimes usually on sundays, but during one of the most important exam of my life i started watching tv shows in binge mode bcz of too much of stress,pressure and huge syllabus.
just one week before the exam i watched Game of thrones in binge mode for around 13 hours a day - i know its pathetic.
all this resulted in failure in exam by 20 marks.
AFTER result i was depressed and watched more movies and tv shows in binge mode for minimum 13 hours a day.
Rest of story tomorrow----

 

It turned out that porn is so dangerous for me. Because I relapsed today and it's because of porn. It's okay to be back to zero. Although I feel so empty and really don't want to do anything now at least I have noticed some factor that I have to avoid for the other days. I will try to handle my emotion and hopefully never relapse again.

 

Yep, it's super dangerous. And I agree, it's okay to be back to zero - and for me it's better that than to have some extended peeking and feel guilty about the "streak" not being up to my standard.

Noticing the triggers (I assume that's what you mean?) and taking action to reduce and deal with them in future - yay! That seems to be one of the primary processes that we do to beat this

 

Thanks for sharing part 1, I'm looking forward to seeing part 2.

By the way, if you haven't already, it might be worth writing this in your own journal thread also. That makes it easy for you to review your own story, why you want to change, things you've learnt along the way etc. To do this, go to the reboot logs https://forum.nofap.com/index.php#reboot-logs.8 and select your age group, and start a new thread. Then if you want it to appear beside your avatar, you can add the Journal Thread Link in your Personal Details.

Don't let me discourage you from putting it here too though. If you're comfortable doing so, please do still share this stuff in whatever challenge you're in - it encourages others as well as yourself

That's an epic avatar btw!

 

Day 0. positivity will bring success.

 

Day 1/30
Day 10 of PMO

 

Day 27 of 30

 

Happy Evening
Day 25/30

 

monday = day 24 completed
Completed day 25 today

 

12/30

 

Day 26

 

Day 2 of no M begins I guess I didn't check in yesterday

 

day 0

 

Day 3

 

day 7/30 ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh awooooooooooooooo hayaaaaaaaaaaa i will not fail this is easy as fuck aahhhhhhhhh

 

chek in day 1

 

DAY3

THIS STORY Started in 2018 , After failure i watched many tv shows but in 2019 the habit was limited till june 2019 because I have to appear in exam for second time , So in 5 months of june 2019 I watched only few tv shows.
However I again failed in exam because of overconfidence... and from 5 june 2019 till 31 dec 2019 I watched movies and Tv shows for 124 days i.e. more than 4 months and everyday i watched this shit for more than 13 hours.

In 2020 I made new year resolution to quit this shitty addiction but In last 6 months i.e. upto june i have watched Tv shows and movies for 3 months (90 days)...> 13 Hours a day.

NOW I Have made resolution on 28 june 2020 , and I will quit this addiction and distraction this time.

I will appear in exam for 3rd time and this time i will pass.... I have around 95 days bcz exam is in oct 2020.

 

I WILL QUIT tv addiction this time and nothing can stop me ... bcz now I know what I really want.