My 90 Days Journey (Hard Mode)

So i relapsed today after edging for 5 hours straight and now im giving myself a 90 Days NoFap Challenge my highest streak is of 52 days its not gonna be easy but im gonna do it this time this im not gonna edge thats something which i really struggle with i text random girls and start edging im gonna abstain from everything (hard mode) and go for semen retention im gonna force my energy and motivation into something that is gonna improve me as a man ill be writing journals here and sharing my 90 days journey with you guy do follow me in my journey WE GOT THIS

 

I JUST HAD A 10+ HOUR EDGING SESSION
I really didnt wanted to share this but i have to be honest with you guys so i received a text from a random girl and from and that just turned me on and my goal was to get her into facetime she didnt agreed and end up blocking me and from that moment i returned to my old habits i kept refreshing my instagram feed every minute and kept texting random girl from the comments in hopes of getting them to face time and this continued for like 6 hours ive spend my whole night doing this then i got up went for a bike ride ate something and while going back to sleep took my phone w me and started doing the same shit until 12 pm i really didnt know what the hell got into me i was so fuckking obssessed in doing that my d*ck was constantly getting hard and down my brain was flushing with dopamine and whenever i was near to ejaculate i stopped and idk how many times i did this and yeah i think i texted around 200 something girls from which only 10 of them replied yeah the motivation for that fueled w my sexual energy was insane and guess what no one really agreed then i ate some eggs and slept at 1 pm
I understand it was one the the worst thing i can do to myself also ive seen when i delete social media im able to do longer streak but i really dont wanna do that because i have a music account where i post my cover and i love doing that tho I have deleted ig for a day or two man i have to stop texting random girls it gets really addictive porn was never an issue for me but this is
My goal is same 90 fucking days and gonna get there no matter what ill go through this i am positive and i beleave i can overcome this}

 

Working on that bro,im no longer gonna text any random girl from now on no matter how lonely i feel or how hard I am

 

Day 4
I had a deep sleep (slept for 10 hours) and then i felt really horny during the day so when i was having the urgue i grabbed my guitar and started stroking it (jk) I practiced for around an hour and then i went out at park to workout with bars and thats pretty much it

 

DAY 8
well nothing new last two days were extremly hard for me ive started watching football again it does distracts my mind also one thing ive noticed is that I'm less susceptible to hunger, cold, heat and the harshness of the elements(cold showers,fasting,heat) recently there were blackouts in my city and ive been Excessive sweating and being able to face it like a man in this extreme heat

 

Update:
10 days ive stopped edging

 

DAY 13
77 more days to go things have been really bad in past and ive had my moments of weakness but im not going to masturbate or text w random girls Fuck that shit man im much more than this
i got first haircut after lockdown and ive been spending more and more time taking care of myself and grooming myself it actually keep you motivated for nofap..

 

it surely does

 

Day 17
day 17 here i feel more aggressive now its a good positive energy i would say
Now i can proudly say that my will to build myself acheive thing for my fam is greater than my urgue to fap and be fucking miserable loser

 

its going all good bro,but one punch at a time youre streak is looking sexy too
PS:Im gonna catch up on that 137 days too xD

 

Day 21
so its been raining here lately and everytime it rains i go to my rooftop it feels really good and mindfull My OCD is getting worse and im working on that too im very calm all the time and i feel strong i can overcome this

 

Day 24/90

 

Relapsed
i relapsed on day 27 was sooo close to 3 days anyways im not thinking bout anythingg im starting again