More alive and social after relapse?

I have noticed if i go too long on NoFap and Semen Retention i become more lone wolf. No depression or anything but just self dependant and not interested in other people.

But when relapse once i feel relaxed and euphoric. I feel alive and more down to earth and it feels really good. Theres many posts about this how people quit NoFap and find a perfect balance. The problem is i dont know how often i should relapse to feel balanced.


I have hit 500+ days and few times 200+ days. Yet the old me felt more alive and social.

Porn is bad though. I am mostly talking about relapsing to sex or normal masturbation.

 

I actually have no idea why i joined NoFap almost 5 years ago. I just somehow read the benefits and got into it.

I mean its not natural to stay away from sex for too long. Not even animals do it.

Seriously i had more libido when i was relapsing myself or with a girl than i was on nofap or SR.

 

It's not that i feel good or bad. I feel really good generally and happy. But i did really go 500+ days on semen retention and not wasting my seed at all. My sex drive was dead and i had no libido or no interest in girls. It wasn't a flatline though.

I remember having sex with my ex girlfriend and i kept wanting more and more. Before i wasn't even interested in having sex and i actually had like semi boners with her. But then after i ejaculated i kept wanting more and more and i felt like my sex drive was back. I felt horny and my boners were stronger than before. Read these 2 links and it's comments so you might understand better?

https://www.reddit.com/r/NoFap/comments/2gwpnf/a_model_for_the_cause_of_the_decline_of_the/

https://www.reddit.com/r/NoFap/comments/2h0q3p/must_read_why_the_powers_fade_and_how_to_get_them/

 

You must be proud to be very idiotic person.

Check my reddit account '' BalkanRay'' it has posts over 4 years ago i believe and there are tons of posts.