How perverted am I?

I see you are doing no porn, I´d recommend doing atleast no PM, cause when you masturbate you fantasize and that can be theoretically brought to those situation..not sure tho. Stay strong!

 

Well, I´ve been addicted "only" 8 years or so. For me, the way was to hit the cold turkey. No PMO when I started back 2018 and lasted 6 months. I see your addiction is very deep, so I´d recommend starting of by masturbating without imagination..or at least without imagining porn models. But I´d be glad to hear more about your addiction, so I could help more. Feel free to DM me

 

Well. it happens. a years ago i had the same trouble. Now im free of porn. but my triggers are the dancers. so try to abstain of porn, im agree wth the other user. you should abstain from orgasm too.

 

If you don't like it, dont do it! Its your choice, start abstaining from orgasms too

 

Totally normal bro.
You are not a pervert. Women are beautiful and our culture encourages us to objectify their bodies.
Porn fed your need forsex.
When it was removed, you started looking for the real deal.
I can't see any issue with that.
I mean women are barely wearing anything these days. And our sexual response predates our thinking brains.

If this bothers you though, please try the monkmode. Be strict with yourself and eventually the brain will start handling stress differently ( using different outlets rather than sex)

 

I think in Gary Wilsons book YBOP he says that fantasies can actually induce similar responses to carrying out the act. In your case M with P-like fantasies is probably not helping but he does suggest that realistic fantasies may be beneficial. If they don't satisfy you I think you're gonna need to go without M for a time as well and maybe see if the results are even better, the healthiest way to M is apparently just by focusing on the sensation and not using fantasies.

 

I’m think you’re a young fellow, who’s never had sex.
And hence this curiosity. I know that kind of curiosity.

NoFap is not merely about quitting P,
It’s about Learning to deal with Lust.
All those people who learn to deal with Lust, make it out of this shit hole wayy faster, because you see, Lust is the most Fundamental Instinct that fuels all this.

That’s exactly what P exploits and promotes Lust. It’s actually Damaging a person’s morals, unless you decide for good, that you won’t do it.

Spoiler: Promotes this shit

Screwing your neighbour’s Spouse! What the Absolute Fuck! Fucking teens, fucking your teacher? What the heck?

 

Nothing wrong with that mate, you're just a healthy male with sexual interests. Imagining the other person naked is very normal and the women who you talk to might imagine you naked too. Just don't stare or try to look between legs cause you're not as sneaky as you think and women will notice.

 

It is better to lower your gaze. It benefits you and the woman you are objectifying.