[90-CHALLENGE] THE NINETY DAYS CHALLENGE !

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Hey guys! Could not post yesterday because I was at a wedding all day))

Anyways, yesterday was the 90th day of my first 90 day streak in my life! As I mentioned it could be done cleaner, I did some edging and had looked at some sexy pics but have not watched any porn since more than 196 days

I plan to start another committed streak very soon, I just want to be off the forum for a few days and reflect on my self. (Does not mean I am gonna watch porn in the meantime of course )

Time for a little celebration as @Pone said! To sum up for the new guys here - I started this at 30 yo with a severe PIED and all the related issues that come with PMO addiction. After one all those days without porn and masturbation I would definitely say I have cured all the physical symptoms and most of the psychological issues, but the former usually take longer. I have had sex multiple times succesfully and my anxiety towards real sex has vanished for the most part because of the positive experiences I have had already! I have disciplined myself in a lot of other areas as well - cold showers - not even one missed since Jan 1st! Reading books on the regular and training!

Much more improvement to come! But I am very proud of myself of what I have achieved in the first half of the year!

I am also very proud of every single one of you that is here fighting to be better! Keep going! Never stop!

Also make this whole thing just one of your quests towards a better life! Don't make Nofap your new obsession! Do it while focusing on other important things in your life! Believe me it is going to make it easier when your mind is occupied with a grander plan than just quitting porn!

I will be back soon

I will leave you with some warrior quotes until I come back!

 

Day 6!
Finaly my streak is going good. But it has been a rough start. After a long streak is hard to come back. And I accidentlly cut my leg with chainsaw. But it's all good now. I'm resting my leg at home and its going better every day.

 

Day 30.

 

Congratulations on your achievement

Congratulations on your success


Day 1/90

 

58 days completed 32 days more for freedom

 

Day 19.

 

Congrats man, well done
Your post motivates me very much, thanks bro. I will keep fighting. Today is very hard for me, because at the night I saw a sexy dream, I feel urges today, but will not relapse and will keep going.

 

4/90 no PMO & computer games

 

Day 81 morning checking in

 

Checking in on day 89/90

 

Day 0/90
Total clean days - 21
Total PMO - 21
Total P - 2
Total hours remaining - 2160
1st Goal - 7 days
Days remaining - 7
Goal completed - 0

I relapsed today because I watched porn for an hour I didn't watch any video but I was surfing porn sites. But I relapsed because I was not able to handle my urges and gave in. My 7 days goal still remains and I will achieve it.

 

0/90

Relapsed today. Was not over P or thoughts, I did webcam sex with my friend/xgf. Although, what this difference is between that and P, in terms of the brain, I'm not too sure.

I was confiding in her about my journey here and her talking to me about her desires and her Ming made me relapse with her.
Still an improvement from me spending hours searching hard core P online. Beat my 3 day streak with a 12 day one and basically had no problems until I chatted to her. It's not her fault. It's no one's really.
I've learned a lot these past 12 days and am feeling good about that, even now!

I've deleted her number from my phone so I can't video call her. We've got email and we've agreed not to talk anything sex related for now. She's my best friend, she's really supportive.
It's a slow progress and lessons are learned. I don't beat myself up about it. I'm pleased with how I'm doing.
This community is really helping. Thank you all.

Edit: convinced myself that i'd already relapsed, which was my excuse to watch the hard core stuff 'one last time'. it's always one last time ey, lol.
No matter, much has still been learned. There isn't any point in beating myself up, i'm compassionate to others struggling through this, that compassion has to extend to ourselves, too.

 

Relapsed just before completing day 3 but i'm not giving up yet. 3 days is still a lot of the back of a pretty long relapse period so i still have hope.
Let's try again day 0/90

 

15/90.
Weekend over☺

 

Day 37

 

Congratulations bromor!!! All the best to you moving forward.

Ouch, that's horrible! So sorry to hear that. Get well soon my friend.

 

Day 86 of 90 complete! (No P)

 

Day 83 of 90 complete!

 

Well is getting better every day. Thank you.