Help Please

Hello guys. I'm new here and this is my first post.
Hope you guys are safe and sound. Any help is vvvv much appreciated. Here we go

Since March I have been having many problems with my erection causing me anxiety everyday.
But the worst decision I made was to google my symptoms and now I'm scared to death everyday that I won't become normal ever again.

Im 18.

So i used to get morning wood almost every other day till March and I never knew about all this erection problems which can happen and didn't care much about what happens down there. But in April I suddenly realised that I haven't get morning wood for almost a month and that's when the hell loop started. I went straight on Google and one after another googled all my symptoms which I will let you know below. The symptoms are very accurate so I do think I have some prob. Also I don't think I was addicted to porn ever but it was kind of regular and routine and later on I used to jerk off to hentai more than porn. Also I started getting my morning wood back recently but I lose it in seconds. I am on 31 day streak

My symptoms:-

-Losing morning wood in seconds.( I stand and take a few steps and boom it's gone). My morning wood lasted longer before and it was totally normal

-. Do get somewhat random erection (sometimes feels like forced) but lose it fast when if I stand)

-Low sex drive(one of the initial symptom I searched )

- need manual stimulation to get erection and lose it in seconds when I stop. I can see my penis pulsating like heart and losing blood(scares me the most)

- Visual stimuli dosent give me erection anymore like it used to before. I used to get a boner from my thoughts as well but not anymore. I remember watching porn and not getting erection.

- Soft glans (sometimes engorged but mostly soft)(least of my worries)

- Involuntary kegel whenever I think of something arousing didn't experience it before. Pretty sure my BC muscle contracts fast the second I think about sex.

- I only got very minute erection when my gf was sitting on my lap(penis enlarged a little but that's all. No hardness). I am concerned cause my friend gets an erection just from sitting next to his gf. Which I believe should be normal for my age.

This is what all I think I have:-

Venous leakage (worst fear ever)

Tight PC muscles(recently found and the symptoms are very similar to mine and venous leakage) Also my problems started around the time I started doing kegels if I remember right.

Low T

PIED(not very positive about this)

And I found a lump right above my left testicle around 2 months back mostly a variocele but it's painless and seems harmless

That's it.

Any help is appreciated as it has been giving me anxiety and I avoid intimacy with my gf cause it scares the hell out of me. I even sometimes think of breaking up even though I love her a lot.

I had thyroid test done(not related to this) and it came back normal.

Thank youu again

 

Heyy thanks for replying. I think it's VL cause the symptoms are vv accurate like losing morning wood in seconds and not getting erection from thoughts or visual stimuli. And also the fact I can see blood draining out. I don't think these happened before and yes I have read many answers stating it's vvv rare especially in youngsters but I can't help but stress about my symptoms ☹️

 

V happy to know you are getting results.
I would love to try but I don't have access to the pills yet and don't want to rely on pills cuz that would actually imply something is wrong with me. And dating with these probs just make it worse and causes more anxiety

 

Thanks bud. I will give it a try whenever I can and mostly will to get rid of overthinking.

 

I hope it works out for you bro. I have been using porn for 3 yrs at max. Is this enough to develop PIED?

 

Heyy. It would be great if it's only psychological and not physical. But I stopped getting morning wood for like 6 months now so def something physical bro☹️☹️. I'm too ashamed to tell my parents and also afraid of going to the doc and being diagnosed with VL. I'm trying to get hold of some pills so that I can check if it's really VL or not. I need prescription though so don't know how I'll get that as well. And I don't think it's situational cuz I never