Intro - need help

Hello to everyone,

I will try to introduce myself and explain you my story.
I am 36yo men from France.

I am addicted to webcam site since 2011, at the beggining it was a nice place to think about something else after a long day of work, I went on this kind of site not more than 1 time a week, then more and more until I lost all my saves ...

I am an old hardcore gamer and I was a long time in my life alone, or I forced myself to be alone for that.

Recently I realize that my addiction to webcam girl is terrible, I have no money anymore.
I spent all on only 1 girl, everytime the same, I gave her all. Now I am in a phase with a lot of shame.
I need help I don't know how to start to avoid this kind of website, since the 10th of june I didnt spend money but I am feeling so anxious, I think only about her It like I am controled but someone.
I blocked all with opendns, remove her from social network, deleted all my account, also started a soft therapy but I still have pulsion...

If you have some tips or else, feel free to contact me.
Thank you!

 

I did that 6 months only with her, I wouldn't say I know her personnaly but we exchange outside of her working time. Thank you for your words, it will help It's difficult to forget this time but I will be strong !

 

Thank you very much guys, I am now at 23 days, staying strong. When I will have more time I will try to write a journal!
Next step : eat heathly and workout...

I am still thinking of "her" but less and less every week!

 

I've started my journal : https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?threads/the-new-me-reboot-story.289186/
Ready to fight!