The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Day 15 HOBBIT : )

 

8 Days down

 

Hello, hello. I'm back. I've made a little progress but it's been 2 steps forward 2 steps back since I stopped posting here. Starting a new streak now.

 

Day 1.

 

Day 60, representing 2/3 of my original goal, checking in

 

Day 24

I have now surpassed my longest record without masturbation. Other than a few urges here and there, my plan has kept me calm and I have not relapsed or fished but for a couple short instances. The last time I made it this far, I was fishing all the time and though I was not masturbating to porn, or going on and watching pornos, I was still engaging in behavior that I now count as reset/relapse worthy. Since I lowered the threshold for reset, I have kept myself far from the edge. I have not stared into the abyss in weeks, and because I am keeping myself so far from the edge, the urges are struggling to push me. I don’t want to get cocky because that can lead to me dropping my guard, but I feel good right now. I have been getting up by 10:30AM everyday and though I want to get up earlier, I am still having amazingly productive days. One of my housemates is a fellow mathematician, and so we have spent much of our interactions discussing topology and the like. He is really interested in the algebraic aspect to topology and I am interested in the geometric aspect so we have things to discuss.

This morning, I had a really erotic dream. However, I am kind of proud of myself right now. Before this current streak, my dreams were about relapse, including masturbation and looking at porn. Now I am have erotic dreams where I have an active role, and though I am semi-aware I am dreaming and that I might have a wet dream, I am thrilled to be having sex in the dreams instead of watching other people do it. Would I prefer to not have those kinds of dreams period? Sure, but my mind is starting to separate itself from PMO, and I am thrilled!

Best,
Mathman1994

 

Day 2.

 

Day 12: Pulled a muscle in my back earlier this week. It’s been a painful few days, but I’m still going strong with the reboot.

 

It's day 23 and it has been the longest I have gone since doing any pmo. Every day I go away from my addiction will the longest I have been without. I had a good day at work and I look forward to another. The emotional urges to use porn are surprisingly absent. Life away from porn is much more real and genuine than. I am going to watch some more nofap videos so I don't continue to lose motivation like I am. The goal is to make a life for myself so good and wholesome that I don't even consider porn. There is a cute girl in the fire department and I want to get to know her better.

 

Day 82!
This thread is great! So many inspiring posts everyday to read!

 

Day 3 , still going strong.

 

Day 4

@Kick-Aç and @Cucurbito how are we doing?

 

Day 4

 

Day 19

A couple years ago, when I started doing some nofap challenges (like one month without PMO etc.) I really felt those "superpowers" people talk about. I had more confidence, more energy... I was in an overall better state. However, I don't feel like that anymore.

I don't know if it is because my addiction has gone further and therefore it will take longer for me to feel like that, or because it was just a placebo effect.

If any of you has experienced something similar I would really like to read your thoughts on this.

I'm gonna end up saying that I don't feel discouraged because of this absence of "superpowers", and that I intend to keep walking towards a better life.