22 year old newbie

Hi I am sam. I am 22 years old. I have completed my graduation this year and now preparing for government exam. I started watching porn and masturbating since 8th class when I was about 14 years old. Since then I am continuously doing this thing till now. I came to know about it is bad way long ago like 2 to 3 years but still could not conquer this. This thing has taken away so much from me. I could not be my best. I was very confident and enthusiastic back then but now due to this I have become an introvert who hardly communicates with anybody. Most of the time I stay silent. In terms of girl I am pathetic . I even cant talk to them . I hardly talked to any girl in my graduation. This thing has made me this. It made me uninteresting. Well since I started my longest streak is of 16 days. I am trying to get over this for last 2-3 years but could not win over it. Yesterday I broke my streak. I was on 16th day. But this thing again defeated me. I am on 0 today. I really want to achieve this. I am starting on 21 days streak now and I will go for 90 days. I really want to get out of this addiction and I will.

 

Thank you ..

 

Thank u ....

 

Thank u.

Day 1 As it was the 1st day of my 21 days target to nofap it went okay. A day before yesterday I had fapped for 3 times so that is why I felt very weak and guilty yesterday. I also could not perform my daily tasks. I did not exercised yesterday. I did not perform pranayama yesterday. The whole day I was seated watching tv. I got urges but I got over them. I woke up around 7 am in the morning. I was feeling sluggish. I didn't feel like doing anything. So I just passed the time by watching tv and taking nap in the afternoon. One thing is for sure which I got to know from this internal battle is that of we can conquer this then we can achieve anything in our lives. Kudos to everyone who are on this journey. Ultimately by being a good man they are making the world a better place to live. Well I did read for 15 minutes before sleeping. And then I slept...that's it for the day...

 

Yes..sure

 

Yes...I will definitely do it...thank u

 

Thank u...

 

Thank u ...

 

Day 2 - well on 2nd day I woke up at 7:30 in the morning as usual and then I freshen up and performed pranayama followed by exercise. Offcourse yesterday I started writing this journal thing. I did study yesterday. I got some urges but I got over them. The thing about this urges is that they tests you whether you are able to be better or not. Nature is testing you. You have to win this battle every time. This battle is difficult because it is with our own self. The one who can win over oneself can achieve anything life. I even had green tea in afternoon. And then watched tv while having lunch. Then I slept at around 12 PM and yes I read for 15 minutes.