The Batman Challenge - Can You Get Rid of a Bomb?

Count me in. I'm interested. @Batty Belfry

 

On my day 3,by the way @Batty Belfry

 

I couldn't fall asleep last night initially and had some fairly strong urges. I edged slightly but didn't give in to full PMO. I made sure to not pick up my phone or turn on my laptop. I walked to the kitchen and around my bedroom a few times and the urges faded.

A younger version of me would have likely binged under similar circumstances. There are still quite a few milestones to reach but I'm cautiously optimistic and encouraged about the progress I've made in the past year. As with everything, covid has thrown a wrench in my recovery plan but I've been adapting and will continue to adapt along the way.

"I have one power. I never give up."
-Batman

 

@Batty Belfry -
For some reason I thought the next level was day 60.
I'm on day 36 without an O and day 57 without M (I did have a couple of O's early on with my gf) but . . . I did look at porn a few times, now.
My primary goal is no M. Avoiding O's (aka semen retention, practicing karezza) is something I also strive for. Porn will eventually lead to M and MO, so obviously not the best choice.
Not sure if I qualify for "Initiate" since I did look at some porn / p-subs. I'd welcome feedback from you and others in the challenge, as I don't want to disrespect the spirit of the Batman Challenge.

 

Relapsed. Day 0

 

and Day 30...I am Bruce WAYNE.
My next goal is to reach the 45th day.

 

Thanks @Batty Belfry
Day 1 Done
Next is Day 2!

 

I have changed my signature to "initiate". I'm really struggling with porn right now, but if I'm not careful I will soon slip with MO and be back at day 0, anyway.
Life has dealt me a hard blow lately, but I can get through this if I focus on doing what I need to do rather than keeping my head in the sand and trying to escape with porn. Grateful for the support that is coming out of the bat cave.

 

i gave in to viewing P, i did not O but i watched P an did some touching, the P viewing overstimulated my brain so i know that im not happy with an i was tired an cranky today cause it kept me up late last night, back to zero

 

Day 2 Down!
Coming to Day 3!

 

I relapsed last night and this morning. At 25 days, this was the best streak I've had in a while but I was still too permissive with myself and peeked and edged a couple of times throughout which finally led to my downfall. While I'm disappointed right now, I'm planning on using this lesson to be more vigilant towards urges and to proactively avoid PMO.

Here is some helpful and relatable advice from Terry Crews:



I'm doing my best to forgive myself and move forward.

 

got 3 days off gonna use it to get straight on my streak life

 

Haven't looked at porn in several days now even though it's right there on my phone, a click away. And, still not doing it, even though life has dealt me some hard blows lately and my stress level is very high.

What I want most is karezza with my girlfriend and I see that as a really positive sign!

 

I relapsed again about an hour and a half ago. Feeling fairly down and depressed right now. I'm getting back in the groove of replacement habits like cooking, exercising, and reading but not as quickly as I would like. One less than helpful habit that I do is over-dwelling on my failures and beating myself up for past mistakes. I need to be better at letting things go.

Here's a video that makes me feel kinda better. I hope it can do the same for you.

 

Relapsed. Day 0

 

i dont know what possessed me i fell into relapse binge, the next day i was drained, didnt want to go to work, wanted to cry, found work difficult i wanted to walk out an go home, i felt dark things like death was smiling an welcoming me to its side, everything was upside down an everything that went wrong today i take the blame for it because i absolutely relapsed