Hi.

Hello everyone. I am a 20 year old male. I've been actively viewing porn for 9 years, although I was exposed to it a while before that.

I decided to quit because I've known its bad for a long time, and frankly, I'm too old to be locked in my bedroom playing with myself. My "rebooting parameters" are no porn, no masturbation. No sexual stimulation at all unless its from another human being. Maybe in the future that will change, but I doubt it. I don't want to risk falling back down this hole knowing how hard its been just to get where I am today, attempting to stop.

I've been trying to quit off and on for a while, but I'm at a point where I don't even enjoy the chemical rush my brain gets. It's like peeing, just something I do when I get the urge, except its destroying my mindset at the same time while not serving a function. At least peeing gets rid of waste...

I came here for two main reasons. I can't do this on my own, I need somewhere to post my thoughts, if nothing else and while the subreddit is okay, I have issues with that site in general.

 

thanks!

 

I'll get there one day. I've finally reached a point where I no longer truly want to live like this, so giving up entirely isn't an option in my mind at all.