Finally swallowing my pride

Well it has been quite the journey. For more than half of my life I have been plagued with compulsive use of PMO. I have always thought of myself as strong enough to overcome my problem, constantly telling myself that this time is the time. That this time will be different, that I had it figured out now and that I was really going to quit. I'd have sporadic streaks, of at the most ever 8 weeks (that was also most recent), but as I have been dating the love of my life I have really realized that I do not want this to ruin my relationship with her. (hence my recent 8 week streak) looking back I am also able to see how much it has robbed me of opportunity and achievement. I know that it is a destructive habit and I hate what it makes me. And yet for so long telling myself that one day I will quit, I have finally realized that I cannot on my own. This forum has inspired me and I am embracing my need for a community. I want to break free.

 

Thank you!