The Lord of the Rings Challenge

I relapsed twice again this morning. I didn't look at porn during the first one but I peeked right before the second one (chaser effect in action). I was negligent and didn't do my exercises yesterday or when I woke up today.

Strangely I don't feel as bad about these relapses versus the ones from last week. I know I need to do better and that I'm capable of doing better. This link helps me to focus on forgiving myself and moving forward: https://nofap.com/faq/does-a-relapse-erase-your-porn-addiction-recovery-progress/

 

Chaser effect bit me. Starting again now.

 

5 days! Might be a small number for some of you but I haven't been clean this long all month.

 

Hahaha, this is perfect. I love the enthusiasm and creativity by the creator of the thread! I'd love to join the challenge.

Unfortunately I'm starting today because of some things that happened, but i'll go in strong and serious this time. I really need a slap on the back to get back to being more serious with Nofap, 've been doing this for years now and felt all the pros and cons.

I'm proud of you guys, and I'd love to join the fellowship.

Over and out. Sincerely yours.

Brewniie

 

Good evening all fellow warriors. Today makes day four.
https://soundcloud.com/forelli/acdc...sershen-zaritskaya-feat-kim-ross-and-shturmak
Edit: Highway to Hell went into spoiler brackets since a fellow warned me that some fellows could be triggered by the thumbnail. Nothing bad but consider that
Edit2: I have put the soundcloud version to be safe

 

Hey man can you put that video into a spoiler I could see some people being triggered by that thumbnail. To get a spoiler you put spoiler in Brackets at both ends of what goes inside the spoiler with a / in front of the spoiler at the end inside its brackets.

Anyways I relapsed this morning, I didn't write in my journal and my workout sucked. I haven't made any meaningful return to trying to build a streak. I have been just stuck in this rut of blaming my circumstances when I know I shouldn't. Going through the uncertainty of hell is no excuse to not building a streak.

 

Of course, done already. If done any harm excuse my thoughtlessness.

 

Still on Day 0, at least for 5 more hours. I have not looked at more in over a week, but I have masturbated now the last two nights to porn-sub. I have been feeling the chaser effect quite intensely since my relapse Monday night. I almost masturbated twice yesterday and this afternoon after my 9PM relapse, and I am fairly much considering moving my reset marker to midnight of last night as I was fishing for about an hour from 11PM-12AM. I started to fish again a few hours ago after being triggered by something I saw online. However, I managed to pull myself from that, and now I am just in a low point. I barely got out of bed this morning due to feeling super depressed and worn out, and I hope that this is rock bottom so that I can only go up from here. I have logged out of my social media accounts, and I intend to stay that way for at least a week (though I have to check twitter on Friday briefly to vote for this poll that Konami is doing for the next Yugioh card to be created), but I don’t plan to stay on after that, only checking in when the next round of the poll is posted. I am also going to try to avoid streaming apps for the time being as I know at least with a couple of them, I can find movies/tv shows with female nudity and accessing that can lead to me masturbating to given scenes. I might still watch Hulu on occasion, because they are fairly clean in terms of what is presented, and I only watch cartoon comedies anyway as I literally have no time to watch a movie.

I need to get my life in order starting today because I have a lot of goals, and PMO is draining me.

Best,
Mathman1994

 

Haha! A good plan to get the fuck out of here! Now that's what I call a plan man I love your drive brother, keep going - you're doing great!

 

That is just awesome my man! I'm excited for u becoming an elf! Keep going.

 

You're just owning it brother! Such an inspiration for all of us. Thank you.

 

Day 6 Check in! Finally I'm a Uruk-Hai now! Let's continue this journey!
Together we win brothers and sisters!

 

28 days

 

Day 11!

 

Checking in here to strengthen my resolve - nothing worse than getting heavily triggered first thing in the morning!

 

Checking in! Day 102.

Keep pushing brothers! We got this!

 

Wishing you well @Mathman1994. Once you rack up a few clean days, you’ll hit your stride again.

One day at a time, one hour at a time, one urge at a time.

Every small step builds a huge foundation.

You’ve got this my friend!

 

day 11: Despite being a lot alone at home i don't have many urges. But they come always unexpected so i will be on my guard.
Besides that i am not very productive. anyone any tips?

 

Day 4! On my way from Barad-dûr to Isengard! Ready to be transformed by Saruman into a Uruk-hai.