MY SUCCESS STORY FOR 270+DAYS HARDMODE

Hi friends and Assalamuaikum Muslim people I sent down the posting of MY SUCCESS STORY FOR 90 days. This time my nickname is a bit different because someone flagged my account as spam lol. So many things have changed during the last 6 months. My self confidence has skyrocketed now and I have a great relationship with the people I love. I feel life more deeply, and my self pity has almost disappeared. My concentration has of course increased a lot more than the previous times of recovery. The list of benefits goes on.. What hasn't changed during the last 6 months of sobriety? 1.) I have never stopped following my dreams and goals. I have accomplished so many great things related to my career and life in general.

2.) I have been %100 committed to the principle of seeking help. I have had a regular online conversation with my counsellor twice a month. Even if I had to stay with my father at the hospital because of his sickness, I never skipped the therapy. I occasionally talked to my mom when I need a support for my negative emotions. I tried to do my best to have an audio call or a video call with my accountable partners on whatsapp. Even if I had some small problems about my career or life in general, I never hesitated to ask for help from my colleagues instead of letting myself feel frustrated and fall back to the evil cycle. 3.) I never stopped dedicating myself to apply some coping strategies like cold showers, doing sports and watching Islamic videos and walking in the nature.


Surely as I'm an ordinary human being and have some flaws, there are some negative attitudes I have to tackle with. I have had YouTube addiction for many years, yet I was doing great for the first 6 months of sobriety. I had been downloading YouTube videos which are beneficial or informative and watching them on Smart TV. However; for the last three months I have been using YouTube videos to escape from some difficulties I have even though I haven't watched even a single filthy video. Watching YouTube videos to escape from difficulties in my life is identical to falling back to pmo addiction and looking for a quick fix for a relief. This is what I'm afraid of most. I swear I will struggle with this aspect of my addiction more than ever. I will stop watching YouTube videos during the meal times, which affect me very hard. I will download only beneficial videos and watch them on smart TV. I have some other issues like

procrastination, surfing online when the boredom hit me hard and ignoring my self care activities like cleaning and tidying my room. My ultimate goal is keeping away from pmo for 3 more months and look for a happy marriage. After marriage I will battle with my addiction more firmly inshaAllah.

 

Jazakallah khair man I know it's a lifelong struggle, yet when I go ahead with my sobriety months after months inshaAllah,I believe nofap will get so much easier.

 

Thank you man. I hope we will break the addiction cycle finally!

 

InshAallah man