Journal of beating PAWS/Flatline!

Day 58/304: I have 1-2 better days once every 3rd week i would say. Not where i wanna be at all. Still hoping im one of those cases who suddenly notices rapid improvement. PMO paws must be one of the hardest things ever to beat and go through. I hope im nearly there. Too many years spent on paws. The social anxiety and anhedonia. When that goes away i will take on the world! Working with anhedonia and anxiety for the past 3-4 years have been so hard. I have learned a lot in this time and i believe things happen for a reason!

 

Day 78/304: Things have been pretty bad the past 20 days. No good days, libido very low. I had a wet dream after not having any for 2 months. Some part of me things im permentantly damaged, but even if i am im never gonna stop fighting. Im waiting for improvement and i believe it will come some day.

 

Yo thanks a lot man. I do meditation from time to time and i am also caffeine free. Dry fasting seems to stress my body a lot and make my symptoms worse unfortunally. Im scared shitless of supplements who deal with the gaba and dopamine in the brain hence why i havent tried any yet.
Good luck on your journey my man!

 

Day 89/304: My libido has been coming back since a week ago after a wet dream. No mental changes, anxiety has been bad lately. Sexual thoughts are coming with my libido rising so i need to be aware and conscious.

 

Day 95/304: Been having some rough days lately depression wise, but today has been much better and i feel more connected to my emotions and lower anxiety. Which is nice. Its no where near normal but its something and getting one of those days once in a while is nice. Its a long road.

 

Day 102/304: Strong urges today because im hungover. Libido has been coming and going, sometimes i get morning woods. Wet dreams are a pretty rare thing which is nice. Anxiety/depression still there. Gotta keep moving and reach my goals!

 

I am above average looking so sometimes i can get away with being an anxious mess with girls, which i am really happy about. But the right now in my journey i see "getting laid" for what it actually is. Just another programming that porn did to our brains. Semen retention all the way and then karezza with a GF when we are healed. Ejaculation is absolutely poision for the mind

 

Cant say i have experienced anything like that, but PAWS symptoms are different form person to person. I would recommend making this "streak" your last in your entire life. You dont wanna mess around for years before getting serious. Semen retention benefits after PAWS are just waiting for us, female magnetism, insane happiness and confidence, what are we waiting for? Go get it

 

Post acute withdrawal symptoms

Basically another word for flatline. It happens when the brain has been fucked so much that it needs a couple of years to recover

 

113/304: Having an "okay" day today. Been very tough lately, lots of depression and anxiety. Its a nightmare, but i know it will end. It simply has to.

 

No. I would have days where i feel better and stuff but i havent noticed progress in general which is very upsetting after so many streaks and years. Before PAWS hit in my early streaks i would ride the benefits i would get. I used to get insane benefits but then paws hit and the healing phase started and it faded away.

 

I pray to god that it gets better. So many years i have wasted on this. I will keep going! And keep fighting!

 

With paws there are people who suffer for 18-30 months and then suddenly its like a switch and they are out. And then there is people who have progress gradually and get better over time.