The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Day 10.

 

Day 18 complete. PMO forces have spotted me! With haste I use the Buckleberry Ferry to cross the Brandywine River.

It does rather feel like PMO forces have spotted me. Intermittent urges throughout the day. At one point I had actually typed out a search for triggering material but I was able to shut it down and back out before I saw anything. These bursts of willpower are an amazing thing but I know I've got a while to go yet.

In the Pokemon games, the three Abilities a Gallade can have are Steadfast, Justified, or Inner Focus. I'll try to maintain all three of those things for myself as I march on!

 

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Day 14
Two weeks, dear fellowship!
The urges are increasing and I'm having some dreams about P, but my rational mind is slowly gaining control back.

 

Im in , my first challenge and day in Nofap very excited

 

Instead of fapping, went on an evening walk in my pajamas. Insane attraction from women.
What'l happen if i start working out?
This is becoming distracting more than fun

 

Day 40. I have maked a detour to the Dwarven Realm of Moria. Let’s keep going

 

como eu entro aqui sou novo

 

Day 94. Checking in. Peace of mind.

 

Checking in for today

 

About an hour ago I relapsed. Next time I will make 30 days.

 

Day 12,

Feeling the energy begin to swell up which is usually an indicator of the "everything is fine I got this mindset" that tricks me into a peek and the eventual reset. My intention is to push past this mentality and find out what is on the other side of my longest streak (18 days).

Note, I have gone on longer streaks since maturing (Marine Corps Recruit Training and other specialty schools that were devoid of internet access) and believe me, the first thing I did once out of the field was relapse. Anyways, on this morning's run I was thinking back to how much energy I had during those schools and how well I was able to operate despite the sleep and food depravation. Now that I am in civilian life I am interested to better understand how to use that retained energy (it is a little difficult since I am not on forced movements under a combat load) [now I am just a college student in front of the computer most of the time hahahaha].

Thanks again everyone! Happy to be a part of The Fellowship

 

20 Days.
Having trouble focusing and with short term memory. Feeling a little foggy. Felt some cravings and desire to give in to PMO in a dream this morning, but when I woke up, it wasn't as bad.

Holidays are great but weird, as they throw you out of your routine.

Anyway, porn-free Sunday, let's get it done!

 

4 days clean. Before this challenge I could not go few hours with porn. Look at me now. I will not go back to watching porn. Too much suffering and hard work to go back.

 

TITLE - ORC
Last streak - 2
Total PMO - 145
Goal - 21 days
Day- 0/21

Sorry I watched porn for 20 min so I consider it as a relapse. I managed to go far as 2 days but that's not a big deal.

 

Porn not worth your time anymore. Eventually you realise how much time its wasted.

 

Checking in for day 5