[90-CHALLENGE] THE NINETY DAYS CHALLENGE !

Day 32

 

Isn't it? I can't believe that I used to think that I couldn't live without that big LIE! Now I realize that how much my mind was jeopardized by it. After two weeks of abstinence my body screaming to go back. But I ain't gonna let that happen "again".

 

Hey yo, Day 15 check

 

Day 0
Trying ..

 

If anyone is having trouble in quitting the 'P'. Just remember it's all a LIE. Nothing is true. Virtual world is not a substitute for reality.

 

You can do this bro, do things that will distract you from this.

 

Day 7

No urges. The weekend seems good to me. Though I have very concern with my anger. I became angry in a small thing two days back to back. I don't know why I'm having anger, I didn't had that problem before. Other than that, everything seems fine. I've started doing some workout everyday and I feel tired at the end of day which is awesome.

 

Day 1.

 

Day 6

Getting better every day

 

Day 24 done.

I'm feeling inspired now by reading about everyone's hard work on this! Thanks for coming here and posting.

 

I’m back. It’s day 5ish.

 

Day 56/90

 

Day 16/90!

Yesterday got really difficult on the evening and I fought back. Urges hit me like 3 times and I kept going. I heard a quote which was
"if you are in hell, you just keep going". That motivated me to continue fighting yesterday.

Have a good one guys!

 

69/90

 

relapse

 

Thanks my dude! I think bringing it here helped break the draw.

Day 6/90. Yesterday was unproductive but I enjoyed my day and I'm just going to be grateful I'm sober.

 

Take ownership of your own thoughts. Dont say how " your " thoughts go back to porn, say "my" thoughts go back to porn.Avoiding 'I' and 'me' statements and substituting "you" and "your" is a subtle way of avoiding responsibility. Find out why your thoughts go how they do. Are you doing everything in your power to stay on track or just lazily coasting along doing only what you think is enough. Half measures wont do it. Take ownership of your words,thoughts and actions. If others can do it so can you.

 

I was watching some anime that I really like, pretty safe, usually nothing suggestive, but suddenly I came across something very mildly suggestive, but enough to drive my dopamine up to a challenging place. I like this series a lot, and I stubbornly tried to keep watching, but I couldn’t shake that amped up feeling. After several minutes, I closed out. It’s 25 minutes later, and I’ve been doing laundry and just breathing, but the buzz isn’t quite gone. I’m sad that I’m going to have to think of that show as a P substitute, but I really want to get to a new place. So even though I didn’t MO, I’m calling it a relapse. This is my day one. But I feel good learning more about what is going to be healthy living, for me.

 

There's a completion to this challenge but no end of the journey but the grave. This addiction isnt "cured" no matter how long you abstain.Stay on the path one day at a time.

 

My daughter has been with me the last couple days and I forgot to check in. I'm still pmo free but am back on kik looking for ideally some casual sex or even sexual chat. I'll get off of that too. Ive heard to be truly free of this lust addiction I need to deal with lust in all its forms. Right now though I'm glad to be away from the porn and obsessive masturbation. I've had urges to view porn but fortunately they have been pretty mild. I appreciate those who post their struggles and their triumphs on here . It reminds me I'm not alone . I've also liked alot of the videos. Thanks all. One day at a time.