No effect and motivation...

Better read post #8 (this is a bit older, some background information^^)

Hi,

I am now on day 12 (try 50 or something, but this time I found NoFap and got more motivation for beginning). I dont have big problems with porn. Its just really hard for me to stop masturbating, because I did it like 4-10 times a day or even more. I nearly relapsed yesterday, I was already masturbating but stopped... I think two times. I see everywhere that everyone feels changes after just some days, but I dont even feel a bit of change. I read a lot about nofap and I still believe in it. At the moment I think I am doing something wrong, because I masturbated so much and there is no change... Every moment is hard and its just getting harder and harder to avoid masturbating... I need to keep it 4 weeks and I have one free month extra, because I will be on a bike tour with a friend of mine. I do nofap because I am usually all day in my room and it prevents me from learning for school, because always when I try to learn, I need to masturbate. After I masturbated I learn sometimes 5 minutes and then I do it again... These 12 days made my whole life kind a worse, I did do something for school but very ineffective and now I am playing computer games again (not much but I do...) and I dont even cook anymore. My last activitie I still do is meeting a friend all 3-4 days.
So I am asking if I do anything wrong? Or do I expect too much? What can help? No changes still I am thinking if my attitude to the whole thing is wrong or something? Today was an easier day again, but I am afraid of further days and I am more afraid of doing something completly wrong and then I made everything without any profits. I will try not even touching the next days.
Hope you can give me some usefull advice

 

Thank you. I read your comment, but I was too lazy to answer... I am now on day 18. Still no change. I stop believing that nofap can help me. I just do it because I know I will feel even worse if I stop it, even worse than before trying nofap. As I said I am on day 18, it seemed impossible for me, but I feel as bad as always. I still dont even talk a bit to others (just when necessary), I still cant concentrate, I still got all this brain fog and everything is a bit worse than before. I read a lot on the internet and I never read that anyone needed more than 14 days to feel something. I read on the internet why it sometimes doesnt work, but some reasons I didnt understand why (like this) and the other reasons arent relevant for me. I think I do something wrong or so, but cant imagine what. I am sure you will answer like "just keep doing it" or something else, but I never saw a story of somebody who needed so much time to feel just a bit. My expections were even very low. I thought that some might say it much happier as it even is, and I thought keeping expections low might be good, that the effect might feel even better. I had plans to never fap in my life again, but if I wont feel anything after about 70 days (I will probably be able to do it, because I need to hold on 2 weeks until I am on a long bike tour with a friend)

But I feel nothing. I just feel bad. I believed so much in it, I thought it must change a bit of my life, just a bit and I will get more motivated. I searched about hours in the internet for a story of somebody who fapped 5-15 times a day and maybe one with changes after longer than 18 days, but I couldnt find any story and that is very bad for my motivation and everything I think I would feel better without all those storys and all that time I used to looked after such a story. Does anybody know such a story?

 

I am often enough in situations I could talk to other people. But I still dont know what to say and I sometimes even try to think about what to say, but I cant think of anything...
I will watch the you mentioned tomorrow...

 

Today is day 26. I dont know if I relapsed... I coudlnt resist and touched my penis and just pressed a bit, I knew I would be able to get an orgasm within 5 secs, but then suddenly there was so much sperm (Even after a very long and slow masturbating session there wasnt so much...). But I had no orgasm, so would this be a relapse? I know most people here dont really want to say "relapse", but I want to count my days and I want to have a guide line (hope it was the right word for that) where my status is and when I complete 90 days and so. I still dont feel the smallest change. As Tassleh0ff said, I shouldnt concentrate on that, but it's really hard doing that :/
So what do you think?