The Lord of the Rings Challenge

5 days clean.
Remember to take it day by day.

 

Day 3.

Congrats, fellows!!

St. Thomas Aquinas, pray for us!

 

Day 28. My cravings for P definitely seem to be subsiding at this point. I do find myself wanting sex but would like to continue on hard mode for at least 90 days

 

Day 84 complete.

Had my commencement for my step study at Celebrate Recovery last night. That was really cool. Proud to have done that with the group of guys I did it with.

 

Day 253.

 

Just checking in today - every day I grow closer to the man I want to be.

 

Day 1. again the day before yesterday I relapsed again . Today I feel good the workout in a harder way helped me so much so let's do this well this time. God Bless you all . stay strong.

 

I love Lord of the Rings so I'm in for this challenge!

 

congratulations, friend! admirable work that you carry.

 

Checking in for day 32

 

day ONE!
holy shit this is hard...

 

6 days

 

Git Gud Brother! Run those miles and practice that piano!

 

At first! after a few days with stuff to do it will get easier!

 

You can do this brother! but you also need to not go on those porn subs... go to a lecture when you feel like doing that... watch one of those Jordan Peterson things and clips and if that isn't stopping you ( which would be weird M=ing to an old guy...but your choice) ...if that doesn't stop you go directly into the cold shower!
I usually throw myself into the cold water when I'm getting a little too cozy and comfortable with myself.

 

you got this @belio123!

 

This is a copy of my post in the Super Sayan challenge which applies to everyone here too:
From today I introduced the extra 'tip' to follow it's 8)Pray to God (at least twice daily in the morning and in the evening)
Checking in !
Super tips followed:
1)Meditate-done
2)Eat healthy-done
3)Training/Workout-done = Practice physical exercise
4)Read and study rebooting-done ~ Follow trigger prevention plan.
5)Focus on your career-done ~ Get occupied.Work on your hobbies and dreams.
6)Take cold shower-done
7)Sleep well-done
8)Pray to god-done
9)Stay accountable daily on following these 'tips', on relapse if it happened(including what thoughts and feelings led to it, what were the surrounding circumstances and what have you learned to never repeat it again)-done
10)avoid alcohol,drugs and all sort of intoxicants
To those brothers who keep wallowing in never ending relapses :
You will never get out of this vicious cycle unless you accept and practice all of these 'tips' honestly and diligently everyday.

 

Alright! Checking in on Day 57! been kind of lazy as my 30 day abs app provided me with a rest day, so I did no workouts today except 2 push-ups.
Got close to relapsing as I went on Instagram to search for someonem and as I pressed the search button... of course there was a plethora of e-thots and onlyfan girls... So my attention was detracted for like 3-4 minutes seeing if she's a hoe or just a simple instamodel with a little cleavage (she was just another hoe with all porn websites in the description) and after visiting her youtube to see if people are subbed and of course she had 10k subs just by posting 10 videos with her cleavage, I got really frustrated. I'm getting Mgtowi every time I see these kind of things... so much so, that I feel tempted to use these tactics to dupe other men that are desperate like that.
The frustration is... that from just one click, from just one "popular" picture... I got to lose 5 minutes...and not just 5 minutes … 5 minutes being angrym frustrated and close to a relapse. Now... of course, I understand this as it being my failure... for not being a sexy blond woman with huge bazonkazonkaz or interesting or literate on my videos but I guess there is a lot of place for me to improve myself (and that's a good thing) and I know that the photo did it's thing... it stole my attention so easy that it was terrifying! So terrifying that I jumped from my bed directly into the cold shower, and as short as cold showers are... I doubled the time and turnings and I felt better refocusing on the things I have to do and learn today without investing any more energy to any thought surrounding those types of women and the men that fund them.
Aaaanyway! I'm glad and proud that I am here before you on day 57! Because that is what matters the most!

 

Day 1

Guys, I blew it again. A thought related to my specific porn niche occurred to me yesterday, and I just couldn't/didn't get away from it. I rationalized my entertainment of it. It led very quickly to actually looking at porn.

I am very disappointed in myself. I feel flat and uninspired. But not totally discouraged. I need to get back up and fight.

in the past, what that's meant for me is scheduling my day and sticking to it, getting into work and relationships, etc.

One thing I'm going to do today is write down some resolutions for the coming weeks.

 

Get back at it brother! Light that internal fire and lead from there. I slipped hard this weekend and am on the mend. Lets get back to it together this new year and work towards becoming all that we can be!

You got this!