35 and Older Accountability Group

Birthday is near the end of my 90 days. I feel good at 35 days. Meeting real women and making real eye contact with real smiles is infinitely preferable to the cheap substitution of electronic devices displaying images of women.

 

Starting to get rolling a little. I'm overdue for a decent streak.

 

Happy new year all (very belated).
Checking in.

 

Checking in, almost getting to my first goal of 21 days, wishing you all the best especially artifact (thanks a million)!

 

Head up to everyone I feel your struggles and glad to see my name amongst 19 others standing up for their lives

 

I have selected tiger image as my profile picture. If you think about the tiger, it’s an amazing wild cat. We can learn something from it and this image will be a reminder for me that I am not weak. Things which we can learn from tiger;
1) Tiger hunts alone and faces its challenges on its own. In the end, we all are responsible for ourselves especially our mental and physical health. We should take control of our lives and should say no to PM.
2) Tiger is very courageous and once it decides about the hunt, it doesn’t back down even in face of resistance and ferocity of the prey or other predators. We should face this challenge of nofap even considering that the enemy may subdue us sometimes, but we shouldn’t back down.
3) Tiger doesn't have a herd mentality and would go on its path. Considering that today’s society is going downhill on porn and over-sexualization of everything, we do not have to follow the society on this. We can make our own rules of not going that path.
4) Tiger knows what’s good for them, and takes a decision not out of being aggressive but what’s the most efficient way of killing prey. It won’t take unnecessary risks which would hinder its future chances of survival. We should also be calculative and should see how PM has hindered our progress and the fruition of our potential in life. We have taken enough risks by looking at porn, masturbating, and peeking/stroking one more time. We don't need these risks as our progress depends upon avoiding this path.

 

In a weird way my new year starts on a Monday, start of the week, end of the holiday, etc... feeling more organised over work and home. Second day in. HNY everyone, hope everyone stays positive.

 

I've been eating healthy for 6 days. I've been trying to stay more active in down time.

I feel good but I think I need a nice few weeks streak to feel like a I did before I reset/relapsed so many times in short order. I'm trying to stay positive and see it as something to earn again.

This year I'm not imagining a 2021 fap free. I'd love to get 90 days though, so it's not purely "day at a time" thought either. When it gets challenging I'll flip back to that mode.

I noticed the day I set my goals it all fell apart within 4 hours. That might be part of the reason I fall apart when I feel hopefull. Like "I made a plan, my work here is done" haha.

 

It's been a wild 3 weeks. Have not given in except once since Thanksgiving and that was last year.

I sincerely want a clean 2021 and will work toward that goal 1 day at a time.

I have met with a spiritual counselor from my church. I will confess weekly in effort to hold myself accountable. Service is important as well. I will volunteer regularly.

Praying often.

 

Had a lot of work stress today and dealt with it the same way I always do..PMO..makes all the stress go away, for the moment.

 

Tell me about it. I feel like a junky killing the best part of my life for another fix. It gets old.

 

It sure does get old and it makes me feel old. When I go on a binge with hours a day of PMO, I start to feel like a shell of a person. I have no energy. No will to do things. Have to snap out of it.

 

Tuesday morning sign in

 

Resolve on the new years resolutions getting challenged so it's a big day. Checking in.

 

That happens to me as well. I tend to masturbate when I am low on confidence and depressed about my situations. I still have not found a coping mechanism to deal with these kind of situations.

 

Okay, so here goes I reached 21 days of my goal no PM, and I can say that I faced the following challenges:
1- Urges in the form of thoughts
2- Increased sugar intake its crazy (gained APPARENT weight)
3- Lethargy and increased sleeping withdrawal symptoms
4- Prolonged bouts of procrastination it was sooooooooooo silly

I overcame them by work, play, and socializing, and long long walks (its my original habit).. with so many LOGICAL thoughts of doing the right thing..

Overall its totally worth it, I fully believe all the good things they say here that comes your way inside-out when you strive to be clean, pure and good, away from that all that filth and poison that is called porn, its not worth it giving my life away for that..

I celebrated by having a porn-free, masturbation session, by choice. This was a gift I gave myself, to go on. The goal is being free from porn slavery and endless meaningless PMO for hours on end. I respect my body and would be glad to repeat this for 2 other times (total of 21 x 3 = 63 days). Then I would call it a day and noFAP would be done for me

Tell me what you think, and all the best to you all

 

hear ya, pal! Did the same on January 1! On well, the wheels may be spinning even if the engine is off. Let’s hope they stop soon.

 

Had two dates. Have plans for a second date. NoFap/No PMO going strong. Healthy eating, healthy exercise. Talking with real women beats the digital experience. If one can make talking with women better than PMO then NoFap is a breeze.

 

Counting days but not even mindful of that. My last reset was stress based relief or so i thought.

It always fails and falls short of what i imagine it to be, which is really nothing at all except a reset of my daycount, that leaves me feeling more stressful then before i gave in and always wanting more than i can get.

Reproduction is the goal and lust is the tool of trickery that gets us to reproduce unwillingly most times, but that's the way of things.

Since i have no reproductive goals, celibacy is easy it seems. Abstinence however is not, since lust is still present, in case i decide to change my mind and start a family.

I pray for peace today.