Surprised Myself Today

In moments like this, I find it importante to give place to a bigger pause and ask yourself: what did I learn from this relapse?

Probably when you entered the shower you already had relapsed in your mind. Only you know details. Try to extract a lesson from this, and if you find the lesson is just "try harder", then by all means, brush the dust and start over.

We all relapsed many times, even after making a firm commitment, so it's okay really.

 

I always found with my addictions that it was impossible to quit without being mentally ready. Like smoking for example. Stopping was so hard, but then one day I was just ready. Unfortunately, after about half a year, I started again, and then it took me about 3 years until I reached that readiness to just say 'I REALLY don't want this anymore' and stopped again. I was the same with porn. Tried nofap many times but my best streaks have come either when I feel really 'ready' to leave porn behind (which is where I'm at currently), or in one particular case, when I had some serious motivation (couldn't get hard with someone I'd been pursuing for a long time. It made things weird between us and the relationship never went anywhere).

With that said, I actually wouldn't recommend waiting around to feel ready. If not now when? You know porn is doing you know good. Perhaps use things like the prospect of not being able to get aroused in real life situations as motivation. You may not be at that point now, but the further you go into a porn addiction the more dissociated you'll become from real-life arousal queues and like so many people on here you could suddenly find yourself in a position where sex with an actual person becomes something you just can't do. Think about that in those moments.

Good luck

 

no way around having off days. i feel like every person on earth has em. you just gotta go through em i guess. idk were it comes from but i do know the more we endure, the easier it gets. promises are a funny thing, we promise things to god knowing damn well we won't keep it. the intention behind the promising is probably true but the promise itself is more than likely a house built on quicksand.