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Space Marine January - Team Deathmatch (CLOSED)

Discussion in 'Events & Challenges' started by EndPornLiveLife, Dec 27, 2020.

You pledge loyalty to the...

Poll closed Jan 15, 2021.
  1. Space Wolves

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  2. Black Templars

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  3. Dark Angels

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  4. Blood Angels

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  1. Newmanatee

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    Back to the end of day one again after a rough ten days since my relapse. I've relapsed nearly every day and found myself in a pretty deep rut with zero motivation. I'm slowly getting out of that rut now but it's been a tough month. Looking forward to February where I'll be back fighting alongside by battle brothers.
    Massive congratulations to everyone who's still up and fighting in this challenge. It's been a tough one for a lot of people judging by the amount who've fallen but the defining factor in whether those falls are temporary blips or a lifestyle will be whether you're back here on February 1st, ready to fight again.
    DEUS VULT!
     
  2. Sebbrix

    Sebbrix Fapstronaut

    Just dropping by to say hello brothers, after my very early fall, and to vent because y'all are mof****in amazing people, don't read if you don't want to, just needed to get some stuff off my chest. I'm 10 days deep now, but today I struggled to think of anything other than sex (no thoughts of PMO though, interestingly) - lockdown is making me feel so crap, I desperately need some physical intimacy and affection for my mental wellbeing, but I can't meet anyone new because of the lockdown and I recently uprooted my life to move for a job so I don't really know anyone around here. The only things that are keeping me going right now are my business project, though that won't launch for at least another year, and my running, which is on hold because of an injured tendon in my heel. I don't even necessarily need sex, I just need someone to cuddle, to have conversation with, to hold and to discuss the crazy shit I dream up. I think I'll text one of the few friends I've made while I'm up here tomorrow; I don't see her in a sexual way at all, even though she's very attractive, she's just a bro, and see if she's up for a takeaway with a totally platonic cuddle and chatting shit evening.

    Basically I'm doing good with the NoFap journey, but I'm dying from the lockdown - as you were, gentlemen (and ladies, if any of you are ladies in this disproportionately male forum)
     
  3. I was about to ask you the same question indeed @Mya questioned...
    I get you, it’s very hard and harsh for a 15 year old to go all through this. Most of the teachers never understand a child or either I would say they don’t like to hear an opinion from the child. You’re in your teenage and a teen needs a guidance to what and how he/she has to manage and deal with everything (good/bad).

    Don’t worry about the poking that you get from every other person. You know that you’re good just bring that out...be patient and don’t fall prey to the evil minds. Do your best buddy. We all are with you on this journey.
     
  4. Day 19 done
    Day 20 checking in.
    -Black Templars-
     
  5. Checking in.

    Errk. I hate being in that state, where it feels like you're stuck. Glad you're slowly getting out of it.
    Wanna fight alongside me in the 3 day or 7 day challenge (in ~10 hrs) @Newmanatee?

    I read, and others will too. Thank for sharing @Sebbrix
    Yeah for sure, we all need intimacy. A neuropsychologist I know said, "We don't need sex. We do need intimacy." I believe it's absolutely true. I hope you can keep in touch with your friends and family, even if it's mostly by phone. It's so important for the NoFap journey, and for life.
     
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  6. !!! ATTENTION ALL IMPERIAL CITIZENS !!!

    As of today the monthly purge of heretics will be commenced. You must report to the authorities (@EndPornLiveLife me) that you are present and accounted for at least within 3 days (the 23rd) from now. If you fail to do so I will consider that as a a sign that you a heretic and that you have failed to keep up with the standards that we expect from our citizens. I will add ¤ sign to those who have reported themselves in the meantime to keep track of and weed out the HERETICS amongst you.

    I have already added ¤ to those of you that I see keep coming on here and posting so double check to see that I haven't missed adding ¤ next to your name (in the initial post of this challenge).​



    Thank you for your compliance and have a blessed day.​
     
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  7. Black Templars
    @RK@24 Standing tall, leading his team to victory

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  8. Tough to hear what a struggle you're going through. You were an inspiration to me throughout the November and December challenges when I kept falling. I saw you start from Day 0 same as me but then build up to over 2 months! That was wicked! Ultimately the motivation will have to come from within yourself, but that's not a bad thing when YOU and I and ALL OUR BROTHERS AND SISTERS here know you can do it! Nothing stopping you from fighting alongside us right now! Who needs February?

    Newmanatee ready to get back in the game:
    [​IMG]
     
  9. Sebbrix

    Sebbrix Fapstronaut

    I may be dead, but ya boi ain't no heretic! Kinda hard to post regular messages when you're a corpse, but I've been reading every message and following the campaign since I fell. This dead body is reporting in, looking forward to the time when he can be resurrected for February's challenge and rejoin the ranks of the fine people in our midst!
     
  10. Hey! @EndPornLiveLife, can I join deathwatch the next month? if I didn't fall this month.
    I know that it will be hard but I will do my best.:)
     
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  11. Newmanatee

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    Thanks guys! Completed Day 2 just now with some very heavy urges so chalking that up as a small achievement after so many days of not even making it 24 hours.
     
  12. I just decided to reset my counter. I crossed some lines and did things I am not exactly proud of/ would be ashamed if I got caught.
    So therefore I decided to reset my counter (without engaging in full P or M / Psubs)
    I also talked with my SO about it.

    I see it as a measure necessary to ensure my future reboot. Also I want to crush the challange in feburary, therefore I am extra strikt now where I'm going and what I type.

    take care!

    Edit: This may sound like over perfectionism but it's not!
    I like to paint this picture from Mark Quppet for you.
    He talks about rebooting like diving with a submarine for a treasure that lies on the ground of the ocean.
    You trie to dive down, and as soon as you see there is some leakage you can go right back up and fix it, so you can dive deeper and deeper next time.
    It's little to no damage done, but just continuing isn't aceptable/dangerous
     
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  13. Mya

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    As always. Its priceless advice. Thanks
     
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  14. Mya

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    Firstly I must say I am taken back by your response. It was very kind and considerate of you to take the time to do that. I dont wish this on my 15 year old what you are going through so thanks again for putting up your perspective.

    Look where you are now, its testosterone pumping through your body, pressure from parents teachers to perform and all. I get that and I fully relate to you there. But having said that this is the worst it can get given your age and if you make through that then rest assured you will be ok later on. The question is how.

    Firstly is no PMO your escape mechanism or is it something you really want to do. If stress pressure and all is leading you to PMO then your decision to do no PMO is out of either guilt or to make you feel good and all as PMO doesn't match to your value set or because you are a fighter and you think that you are giving in.

    Look you must try to get that feeling within you whereby you compose your self in the midst of ruckus and put your fighting face on. This is where you stand and this is where you will make your stand that will define you.

    Fear is very normal and human.
    Embarrassment and guilt is very normal.
    Just dont focus on these things and calm yourself down and find your inner strength and fight with it.
     
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  15. vicicool

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    Yeah. Keep the fire in your temple lit!
    The Holy Spirit in your body I mean by that. :emoji_fire::emoji_dove:

    This is my thought: You‘ve let in darkness through the windows (eyes) of your temple. And now the traders are inside, dishonouring the holy place. Now you need to call Jesus to come inside and cast them out.

    This thought is based on these 3 scriptures:

    1. CORINTHIANS 6:19
    MATTHEW 6:22

    JOHN 2:13
    And never forget MATTHEW 5:27
    Adultery
    27You have heard that it was said, ‘Do not commit adultery.’ 28But I tell you that anyone who looks at a woman to lust after her has already committed adultery with her in his heart. 29If your right eye causes you to sin, gouge it out and throw it away. It is better for you to lose one part of your body than for your whole body to be thrown into hell. 30And if your right hand causes you to sin, cut it off and throw it away. It is better for you to lose one part of your body than for your whole body to depart into hell.

    one of my fav’s: Romans 8:6
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    For to set the mind on the flesh is death. But to set the mind on the Spirit is life and peace. ]

    since what happend then, when they all prayed for me in the 40s and I prayed that one prayer of Zechariah 2:5 , I’ve had no desires to see any kind of “soft-porn”.
    :emoji_fire::emoji_fire::emoji_fire::emoji_fire::emoji_fire::emoji_fire::emoji_fire:
     
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  16. vicicool

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    I really believe it’s just a temptation that we have to fight.
    And also watch what media you consume. It’s trippy.
    Not been reading your journal. Guess you quoted Bibel there too eh?
     
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  17. vicicool

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    Awesome. A true Space Marine! Maybe you want to get this App called “mdf/ Streak Based Wallpapers”.
    Can track streak, has emergency button, motivational wallpapers, and can track good habits and more. I recommend. May the Grace of Jesus Christ be with you sister!
    Example of a wallpaper:
    [​IMG]
     
  18. vicicool

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    Awwwwoooooooooo and Amen to that Mya!!! :D
    God is bigger than the religions.
     
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  19. vicicool

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    Awesome. I especially like the "doing self-refelction" part.
    Hey fam, check out this man:
     
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  20. vicicool

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    You're basically being persecuted for being awesome. It happens. Remember a soft answer or no answer turns away wrath. Stick to the good people and believe me when I say this : when you do what you love, you will find friends. I had NO friends in highschool. Not in contact with anybody out of my school now. I'm in University now and have many friends, who think likewise to me. We just get each other and I feel valued and accepted. Because in Uni there are many ppl there in one auditorium (so like 200 at least to chose from), and they are there out of similar interest as you. In Uni you really learn to accept people too, beacuse people are from differend places, age, faiths, coloures etc. And also gotten one or two great friends in faith as my faith grew. Also you always meet awesome ppl in church...
    I believe you have a special gift. haha maybe because I had a E in physics. Your teachers should appreaciate you more. Know this: your presence is an enrichment and you make a difference. Who denies that is a fool and really dosen't deserve to see you on the daily. But take heart. You're so young. You have so much to look forward to. And this is a GREAT place to start. For me it helped to stick to good people in school, go to things that intrest me, even if the major friend group says it's lame, f.ex. playing soccer with random guys or going to the "minute-prayer" we had in break time, or the choir and the orchestra. Do what you love and you will find friends. I remember after school it really helped me to pursue my hobbies...music...physical activity...just gets your mind of things...and sweeties of course lol.
    Next time anything bad happens, stay calm, take the higher road as we say. You're much too cool to get upset about that anyway.
    One step at a time. You're on a gooood way, my dude!!
     
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