35 and Older Accountability Group

6 days and back to zero. Dumb very dumb

 

Reset but looking forward.

 

Just few hours away from crossing the 30-day benchmark. And since I've got to head into work, there shouldn't be an issue. Glad to have been here amongst this group. And, everyone, keep up the good fight.

 

1. Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying 'I will try again tomorrow.'
--Mary Anne Radmacher


2. Fall seven times and stand up eight.
--Japanese Proverb

3. It's not that I'm so smart, it's just that I stay with problems longer.
--Albert Einstein

4. Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.
--Thomas Edison

5. Failure is only the opportunity to begin again, this time more intelligently.
--Henry Ford

 

Early Wednesday morning Check in.



I posted this video on here a while back, I wanted to post it again in hope it will motivate us moving forward.

Cheers all.

 

I remember last April 4 (2020) and how disgusted with myself i was.

That relapse was what got me to make an honest effort at NoFap after quitting and diving into the PMO rabbit hole head first.

There was intensive motivation to begin again.

My life is so much better without PMO. There is nothing PMO can do for me that is positive. All PMO can do is make me feel bad and reset my daycount. Or drive me to fully and totally relapse with no desire to return to abstinence. The latter is likely.

As temptation approaches, as it always does, i will remind myself that it is but a stepping stone toward reset, which is a stepping stone toward relapse.

In truth, O is so unsatisfying, that i immediately want more than it has to offer, and this is during the actual O itself. I tell myself i could have had an even better one. Sick.

The anticipation of O is the driver toward reset. It's never as i good as i imagine it will be but i believe it will be even better than i can imagine, even though i know it will be unsatisfactory at best.

That is the truth. Anticipation is a lie, the end result is never worth the hype.

 

Just checking in! I'm doing much better recently and having hardly any urges...I'm finding that keeping my hand away from my dick is so important as before I was edging almost every day and that would eventually lead back to PMO. I'm trying to challenge what it is that leads me to edge

 

Low level urges, has to be stress-relief trigger. Not severe enough for me to actually want to give in. But i still recognize the urge as present.

 

I think it's super important to recognize and sit with the low level urges. If I ignore them or brush them off they have a way of turning into high level urges. Nice work!

 

sorry how do i activate my counter please?

 

On the black menu bar you'll see "Update My Counter". Click that and follow instructions : )

 

Checking in...with the new day comes new strength and new thoughts!!

 

Thank you Artifact! Appreciate being part of the group, tremendously helpful. It's a cool milestone for me.

 

Checking in here, so far it's been going well, better than I thought it would. Still, seems that in the weekend I tend to experience some craving, which now and then leads me to search for stimulating content. Luckily my rules appear to work well and I don't break them (no google images etc). But something to remain mindful of. So far so good, seems realistic to try to go for a lot longer.