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Space Marine January - Team Deathmatch (CLOSED)

Discussion in 'Events & Challenges' started by EndPornLiveLife, Dec 27, 2020.

You pledge loyalty to the...

Poll closed Jan 15, 2021.
  1. Space Wolves

    30.4%
  2. Black Templars

    30.4%
  3. Dark Angels

    13.0%
  4. Blood Angels

    26.1%
  1. ToMMy.H

    ToMMy.H Fapstronaut

    I am trying my best to regroup and be ready for the next challenge.
    I red today a simple quote in a book.
    "You may tell yourself that you will never relapse again. If you don’t make any changes, you will relapse again. Fact. If you want to modify your outcomes, you have to make some changes." - Havard Mela

    Reading that I was like: "yeah man, no shit, never heard that before"

    Its that simple and I am so ignorant that every challenge since october, I come here, pumped and shortly after typing:
    Sorry team, relapsed

    Its time to really invest some time, write into my blog, and try to hit it with different aproach and sort of relapsing forward.
    Also not taking it as challenge - like I achieve 30days clean and than I can reward myself with binge session. Thats another bs I noticed in my mind.
     
  2. Reporting for the Space Wolves!
     
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  3. 24 days done
    Starting 25th day.
    -Black Templar-
     
  4. Looks like many of us are struggling at this point. I've just had a shocking 24hrs, relapsed twice. I'm glad there are still some to carry the banner to the end of the month. I intend to get there with no more self-inflicted wounds.

    Btw thank you @vicicool for the MDF app suggestion, I've grabbed it and am checking out some of the vids and articles. Useful stuff.

    I've just saved this to my journal. It's good to be reminded of this simple truth.

    Sorry mate :-( Yep, pop back in when you can.


    Are you writing a family memoir?

    Sorry @Mya. Welcome to the relapse boat. Lets row to the shore and get on solid ground again: storms they are a-coming...

    I'm also interested to hear people's idea on developing thick skin. Perhaps I would usually offer my own suggestions, but I'm not in the best headspace, and am also aware that it's something I struggle with personally on occasion (and I'm a seemingly permanent people-pleaser).
     
  5. I've completed the monthly purge now. Have a good day!

     
  6. I'm not sure that video will ever get old. An entire planet purged of heretics, just as it should be, and may all our urges burn along with them. Sic semper tyrannus.
     
  7. just had quite big Urges but I didn't give them power. I moved not one inch.
    Yesterday I really took 2 hours writing down honestly everything relatet to PMO
    • What are the "benefits" of using PMO (why I used to engage with it so often)
    • What are the negatives of using PMO
    • What does it cost to quit (cravings, withdrawl, temporary mood swings etc., no instant "feel good button")
    • What are the benefits of quitting PMO
    • + how would my ideal PMO free life look like
    • and a commitment. Not to perfection, but to give everything for my sucess. To try to stay on the path as long as I can and not to wallow ever!
     
  8. Yeah Mate!
    anybody can't understand me. I'll have to find them. they are my friends. I don't give a Damn about those teachers, I'll go on my way.

    Important information- when i listened the song,lyrics it 70% related to me and when relating them i cried with all my might. I wanna go to that place where the people cares me, understands me and helps me. AND YOU ARE ONE OF THEM! I will find them and will become the BEST PHYSICIST EVER!!!!(yea it's my goal).
     
  9. Check-in!
    The reason that I was not reporting from the last week because I was BINGEING NARUTO FROM THE LAST WEEK!!!:eek::eek::eek::eek::eek:
    My mental state has worsened:(:(. Day and night I was bingeing and now I don't have a good mental state.o_Oo_Oo_O
    I'll look forward to being good:rolleyes:. although, I'm the only one who can do that.:confused:

    BYE GUYs!!!!!:D
     
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  10. Caged_bird

    Caged_bird Fapstronaut

    I m so sorry about your mental heath..
    I hope you find the healing and comfort you deserve..
    As one brother Said
    We are all grateful for you for this challenge that you have created..

    CBT is very good approach.
    It focuses on changing the way you think about certain things and it is very cool..
    But i suggest that you should try to open about your old wounds as well..
    (only if you think that therapist will understand them)
    All the best from my side
     
  11. Caged_bird

    Caged_bird Fapstronaut

  12. I commit myself to Check in everyda here for the last week of January now. I want to start with a good base in next months challange.
    So let's get some 0/7
     
  13. ToMMy.H

    ToMMy.H Fapstronaut

    @T0mCrus4der 100% doing the same
    I feel some urges. I want to get more into the fantasies, but i realize I cant do that.
    My leg is injured so strategies of dealing with urges are limited.
    On the other hand, getting into the bed is pretty fucking long procedure so that plays into my cards.
    Almost seems like I need to be careful only mornings and evenings. Thats the trap. If I start fantasizing, knowing I cant follow through because od the injury, I get the mood up, get horny and fap once I am in bed.

    I know what to do so lets fucking do it!
    Lets reach the february challenge in good shape!
     
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  14. Sebbrix

    Sebbrix Fapstronaut

    I'm still dead but hello anyway! I feel pretty good - I've gone over two weeks comfortably (I had one day which was a bit rocky but otherwise comfortable) and really looking forward to hitting February challenge on a good stride (will that be posted in this chat? Is anyone signed up to run that one?). Weirdly I haven't had any strong urges to M, possibly because I've strongly avoided looking at porn, instead all of my urges have been focused around intimacy and normal sex, has anyone found this with their rhythm at any point? I guess it may be related to a combination of things, I haven't been drinking since (just after) my last reset, I haven't been able to see friends much but when I have seen them we've generally had more chilled out times, more candid conversations etc (yeah I know it's breaking lockdown, but it's like an extended bubble where people within it literally only ever see others from the bubble, if one person somehow gets it then it's only gonna travel within the group then die out, and it's so important for our mental health right now).

    (Dunno how to do a trigger warning, but there's stuff about sex lives below)

    Things are kinda hard sexually right now, I wonder whether you fine brothers (I use brother as a gender neutral term, no exclusion intended) could advise me... I met a girl in November but nothing serious happened, just making out, because of uncontrollable factors. I haven't been able to see her since then because life has been shitty, but I've been told that she's not sleeping with anyone because she wants to see me again. Naturally, I feel amazing about that because I've had a massive thing for her since that night. (She doesn't really text anyone ever so it's hard to communicate effectively with her except in person, for context). Obviously my heart and my head are telling me "Wait until you next see her, you mustn't send the wrong message", but I also have a very open relationship with one of my (very attractive) friends and she has given strong signals on several occasions in the past. Basically, my head and my heart are telling me to wait, but my dick is a selfish arsehole that doesn't care about my heart and my head and I don't know how long I can keep him reigned in. Does anyone have any advice on how to prioritise head and heart over dick whilst drunk and receiving signals from a very attractive, very close friend?
     
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  15. Newmanatee

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    Sorry to hear about the relapse man. It's so tough getting back up afterwards but I'm routing for you! It took me a couple of weeks to find my feet again so hoping you can get straight back into things. January's been a rough month for pretty much everyone in the challenge by the look of things but I'm really hopeful for everyone going into February, we've got this. After the dark comes the dawn as they say...
     
  16. Everydayisday0

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    Hi All,

    As I am married, is it possible to join the space marine challenge (whenever it's open) in no PM mode instead of no PMO?


    Thanks!
     
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  17. Sebbrix

    Sebbrix Fapstronaut

    Hey Champ! We'll most likely have another challenge for Feb starting soon and it would be great to have you join! I think I speak for everyone when I say that the challenge is about meeting your own goals; some people here might consider sex a reset, whereas others like myself would consider that fine, and everyone will always respect the rules you set for yourself. It's perhaps easiest to compare it to an honour system - everyone has their own reasons for doing this, so it's up to every individual to decide whether or not to reset their counter. Stick around and you'll see the Feb challenge when it goes live, hope to see you there!
     
  18. Everydayisday0

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    @Sebbrix thanks a million! I'm happy to be in for the February challenge!
     
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  19. ToMMy.H

    ToMMy.H Fapstronaut

    @Sebbrix I can relate to the first thing. With more days in I also had thoughts oriented more on normal sex and just absolutely normal sexual interactions. Then I typically fapped. And then the old fucked up twisted fantasies came in.

    The girl thing...its about your priorities. What do you want to the most? Is it just another random sex or you want to see how it goes with the other girl?
    My personal opinion is - when you are not in relationship you can do whatever you want. So if you feel like connecting with your friend, do it, you can then connect with the other girl too and lets see how it goes.
     
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  20. Mya

    Mya Fapstronaut
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    Hi all. Relapsed again last night as I feel gutted by being defeated. I am so angry about it that it's actually depressing. Anyway my fellow wolves I will be going into hibernation mode to calm this PMO bear and will rejoin the hunt after gaining composure.

    I think my reason to rejoin is not out of pure intention to quit PMO rather its out of my anger of being defeated and my ego being hurt. I need to calm down, gain composure in a week or so and then get my intention right and rejoin the roaming wolves of the plains.

    I did feel that I was getting snappy before I failed. But I must say guys arround the 40 plus day mark you do feel that you can go on forever.

    Life is hard as it can get at the moment. But this is where the efforts really count. So I am gonna be switched off for a while but please do count me in for the Feburary challenge.
     
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