[90-CHALLENGE] THE NINETY DAYS CHALLENGE !

6/90

 

Day 25 ✔.
Remaining : 65 days.
Tomorrow is my exam in ECONOMICS,though an optional,but has proved to be very hectic and annoying than my core disciplines.Wish me good luck.

 

Hey guys im back
Unfortunately i failed....
Back to day 0, im really tired of this, because of school i felt so stressed that i needed something to release that and then i masturbate then i couldn't stop it i orgasm.
The problem with me is that i know what i want, but i sometimes i don't make it a priority, im just going along with the flow like im just letting my brain do anything that what is used to.

 

Day 19/90. The girl I asked out turned me down hard. But I called a few friends and I'm doing okay emotionally. Just trying to let go.

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Day 28/90

I'm feeling alright. Felt anxious and frustrated earlier, but I'm good now. Still hanging in there!

 

Day 12
Today was the hardest day yet. I have began using instagram insted of youtube for the last couple days and today i accidently stumbled apun a pornografic photo on there. I took me a couple of minutes to stop scrolling and hours after that i treid to find the photo again. Chose to keep going insted. That was a really really close call

 

Day 41! Let's aim for one more day boys!

 

day 1 finished

 

28 who am I

 

Day 45
I'm halfway there!

 

I'm in
Again
This time I will do my best
Thanks God

 

Good luck

 

48 days done...woke up in the middle of the night and started playing with myself, but caught myself before it went too far. Keep going guys, one breath at a time sometimes

 

Thats dangerous, but it takes real heart to stop midway, this is a clear sign that the addiction is not what influences your life 100%, you l have a choice in the matter, we awlays have a choice, relapsing is not a decision forced upon us.

 

My friend You quit youtube thinking its dangerous.. Instagram is basically a soft-core porn app, the whole concept on insgtran is based on sexuality, models attraction users extra goes on both sexes, unfortunately when money becomes more imposrtant to a country or people more than following morals you end up when spreading bad morals and the wrong message amongst people in the wrong way, is business they’d told you we’re not using the client we’re exploiting his human weakness he tottaly does this freely, but in reality this is like handing out nicotine gum to none addicts without them knowing, and they conssume it in large quantity and then we creat a shortage in stock on purpose so those people would feel withdrawal effect and creat a need for this guy to sell it on a higher price, or release it had nicotine in it , then deviate them so they’ll end up actually smoking instead of eating gym now they’ve become nicotine tolerant.

 

i used to smoke my friend and the key to your problem is in meditation, you might think mediation is a very stupid idea, but meditation, is simply calming yourself willingly then have a conversation, its like being your own self-best-friend-ever, most us addict really beat ourselves, and we treat ourselves worse than we treat even strangers, that the addiction making is judge ourselves ready high even on small things and notice little good about ourselves/personality/achievments, we start to set high standards but instead of motivating ourselves to take small steps and learn for inevitable failure(aka valuable lesseons) we set high standards sont focus only on this we didnt do, like perfectionism, so when we feel stressed, we cannot be our friend because we are used to do so, we are often very negetive and think we all have bad lives, again addiction trying to bring us down, to remain addiction and not force change, and then we turn inti our addiction and the cycle continues, my suggestion to you and also to myself most, is instead of apeaking to our inner-selves as generals lets speaking as someone who cares about this person, lets be our ownselves best friend, this can only happen after realizing theres a negative emotion going own, the proceeding with meditation.

• Acknowledging the existing of the emotion.
• Be in peace with it, and let it pass without fighting it.
• Forcing a calmer state by breathing low.
• Once calm have a brainstorming convo to understand the issues and tackle it with logic only.( this will include, understand all human are prone to weak emotion, we are not robot, and get sad, and it will happen even when we are +4 years streak, basically cured, the only solution to tackle being sad for example, not a having a girlfriend is to realize, not having one doesnt mean for example we are lacking in term of being human/men, women are also not the most important thing in the word, and to come up with a solution, its often better to work ones self in order to get married for example, that working against yourself and relapse, to be feel more worse and to even creat a loop for that problem again, every time you feel lonely or rejected for example you will return to pmo, untill you fix your emotions first.

This is called an emotional triggers, and most dont recognize this, but being constantly aware of your emotion help, this offered in prayers like my 5 daily prayers in islam, or through meditation you and i need to do better to beat this loop and get out of it asap, i will try to be more aware of my emotion, and try fighting bad affirmations i tell my self or are forced upon me, always use “why’s that ?” To get to the buttom of this, why i feel sad? Why is it im a loser (logical reason”? Why not having a women is being a loser ? Are all people i know who aren’t in relationship losers ? See the issue become more clear when we awlays ask why ? and reply in a calmer state tackling the issue and moving on

 

Relapse. 2 day stretch.

0/90.

We move!

 

Day 0

 

Day 62

Feeling good so far. I've started reading book like crazy, and I love to read book rather than just wasting time on browsing on mobile.

 

7/10

One week done.

I have a specific situation in my life that worries me. I've started noticing that when I think about said situation, a feeling of adrenaline pops up in my body along with the desire to PMO; using PMO as an escape mechanism.

Also, I've become mindful about how I talk about this problem on here. Some of the words can be triggering if not careful.