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Day 19 Checking in!
These days i’m a bit sick, but i hope to regain my health soon because i cannot do my workouts...

 

Day 0 I fell sometimes it doesn’t seem worth it like I won’t be accepted because I doing some different from the norm. Like from a sales perspective I feel like I lose relatability

 

If you focus on how others see you there is no chance for growth, and this is not even specific to P.

If you don't have a deep and personal drive to stop watching P and stop PMOing, then, quite frankly, you aren't even in recovery. You are just going through the motions. You won't make it anywhere in giving up P. I am not trying to be harsh; I am only being straight with you. Am I suggesting that you should just stop trying? No. It is just that this any community that is focused on P recovery will not be fruitful for you. You will only lose time and energy.

I have learned that there is 100% no room for doubt in this recovery and the only way to recovery is to do it for yourself.

If you are not there you will not get anywhere.

 

Day 49!

 

Without sacrifices there is no victory and giving up on alcohol is just a small one for what you intend to accomplish.

 

Day 3 and 4

 

... and yet it is a double edged sword. It may encourage and motivate you to show your best qualities because no one wants to be seen as weak,immoral failure, but when you are alone it's so much easier to do something shameful which you would never do if you would thing that all the people in the world are watching you at this very moment. Brothers, don't think you are alone, cos you never are. You are inseparable part of God and humanity and everything in the universe is connected even if you can't see how. And you can't see exactly because of this kind of alone and separate kind of thinking which is based in shame, sin and vices. This evil confines your consciousness and denies your birth right to be a part of everything. Stay strong in righteousness and you will never feel alone.

 

...well said! ...and just to add a bit:
Don't see you journey to lead PMO free life as a streak, you quitted it once and for all , you are free from it from that very moment and don't believe anything else. As for the fight with urges -it's rather a lifetime battle than days and years ,although I suppose after few years clean we will appreciate this freedom so much more and it will become easier over time.

 

Day 2.

 

No, it is YOU and only you that confines your consciousness. It is how you react to what you have exposed yourself to. You made the choice to continue after your first video. There is no evil. There is just you, your mind, your body, and your life energy. There is no evil. If you believe there is evil you have something to blame every time you relapse. You lose anything that would make you the individual that you are. Everything that has happened "to you" is because of your actions, everything.

 

You ARE consciousness my brother(that is your true nature) which dreams of being the body.Everyone will wake up from this dream when they leave this body behind.
...and there is evil-It's all the harmful , hateful thoughts and believes you cling to feel yourself separate from others for the Good is in the thoughts and beliefs of unity, interconnectedness and love which are expanding you to your real unlimited size instead of being confined in I and me and mine.

 

Yes, the body confines your consciousness, absolutely. The body is only a part of your consciousness, it is not the whole. This is why first world western societies are completely lost in compulsions, they just focused on the body. So the underlying structure you and I see are the same, but the path we are taking are different.

 

checking in for the day

 

Day 20 is gone.
i had to stay home to fully recover from vomit episodes i had last 2 days. it’s hard to stay at home because it’s easy to get triggered by loneliness, tv shows, junk food or internet, but i was strong enough to start a long house cleaning session, to be sure to have something to do...
Now day 21 is starting over...

 

Day 159 checking in!

 

Day 9/400. Lets go!