Space Marine February - Team Deathmatch (CLOSED)

@Sebbrix sounds great! When my leg is healthy again, going to start exercising mobility for sure.

 

Also I think about, how fantasizing brings me nothing but craving, and distraction of my thoughts/lack of focus.
But iportant is, that I don't beat myself up for having these. I have this honest conversation with myself always from a state of dignity. I feed myself these toughts as a leader and a friend i.e. selfcare

 

Checking in for the Black Templars. Still going strong!

 

The observation of @Gallade_Templar about my last meme was quite poignant: even Space Marines and Battle Sisters like us would be pushed to our limits to battle urges incarnated into an evil pink little man like FF.
Hence, today meme rebalances the match putting under the light an unexpected character of the NoFap play we all live daily.



@EndPornLiveLife thank you for your two cents! I'm also relieved to see my experience resonating with yours. As much as I love studying, it can be demanding and overwhelming sometimes. Wish you the best for your present study!

 

@T0mCrus4der Thats good way to look at it. Thx!
I think its very important to acknowledge that urges/fantasies are going to be always here. Actually would be pretty bad if <30y.o. men wont have them
But watching one of these universal man vids, there was mentioned, that the constand/daily in my case almost hourly urges/fantasies are mainly caused by porn. That the consumptions of porn enforces these fucked up fantasies and make them more frequent.

Sometimes I wonder, if I had never watched porn, how would my fantasies/urges looked like.
Would it be so frequent?
Would it be so twisted?
-> I think no way, because if I had never seen some of the scenes I would have never known that you can do that to woman and even foolishly think that they like it/want it.

Its crazy to see how affected I am/we are, by something so common, yet I truly believe, poisoning and n1 thing I want to gradually push out of my life.

 

I get what you mean.. but these are the cards that have bean dealt to us and we have to try to make the most of them..

to the fantasy thing. I do rarely fantasize now (befor it was realle a few times per hour). SO in my case it was getting much better really quick, by responding to these toughts in a honest way.

I also tell myself, that many Fantasies aren't a part of/an expression my authentic sexuality and have been planted by PMO.
this and the core element of "the SPAM REMOVED (spam code #001) - REPORT TO MODERATION way"
that PMO brings no pleasure, it just supresses the urges for a short time, that were created by PMO in the first place!
really has worked for me in regard to fantasizing.

 

Checking in for the Black Templars. It feels so good to be back in this challenge with you all. Feeling good and motivated despite some heavy urges over the last couple of days. Keep fighting out there guys, get this under control now for your future self. DEUS VULT!

 

Unfortunately I have relapsed. It was completely my fault as well. Basically over the past few days I've been edging like crazy even though I knew I shouldn't do it. Wasted a lot of time as well that I should've been doing university work. I'm going to try the 14 day challenge. Now my problem is making sure this doesn't evolve into a binge like it has done in the past.

 

@Antimatteromega I always relapsed exactly like this ->fantasies -> edging -> cant hold it -> full relapse -> binging
Edging is actually worse than just one and done relapse.
GL in your journey. You will get it the next month challenge!

 

Having a very hard time guys.
Fantasies all over the place. I even started working the type of assigments it take at least 2-3hours and you cant really leave, so I hope this helps me.
The tension is brutal. It really sucks that the only thing I can do and will do as soon as I finish the task is to take cold shower. Even that is super tricky when you move around with crutches.

Honestly if I am not in this challenge I have already blasted.

 

Hold out brother, I believe in you and I know you can pull through. If there's anyone around that you can work in the same area as, go and work with them! Deep breaths, clear your head, think about life without the reset, then get mindful and get your head back in the game. You've got this champ, stay strong

 

Checking In for Blood Angels.

Fighting against urges to fantasize and acting like a friend and mentor to myself.

 

Heyy people! (below message is in the subject of deceptive brain messages 'cause you know I always manage to pull PMO, although I failed sometimes from not edging because of the surprise sexual scenes in anime which I was bingeing from the past few days like crazy)
I was not posting for the last several days. it was because my deceptive brain messages demotivated me. It made me think that I am a shitty nerd who can't do anything. It was very hard for me to get back from those urges and the messages. Though talking to a few people has given me some strength. It is like I am back in those starting days when I had lost all my hope. I really forgot now about who I am and what I wanna be. I will get strength back from my EXPERIENCES of abstaing from porn, though No PMO is continuing side-by-side with dealing from my deceptive brain messages and going ahead in life by my way.
I'LL BE PLEASED IF YOU(MY COMRADES OR WHO CARES FOR ME) GIVE SOME MOTIVATION TO ME PLEASE FOR my sake. HELPppppp.......

 

I know it can feel like you've partially lost your sense of self, but I guarantee you're not alone in having experienced this (heck, I've experienced it several times). There's an ebb and flow to most peoples' self confidence, sense of self, and basically everything in life. Just because you're in a bit of a low point right now, does not mean that's who you are, you're just in a bit of a trough at the moment and as soon as you come out of it and hit the next peak you'll feel a million times better!

NOW I'M GONNA GIVE YOU SOME ALL CAPS MOTIVATION SO YOU'D BETTER F***ING READ THIS SHIT!!!!! YOU CAN DO THIS BROTHER!!! IF YOU HOLD YOUR HEAD HIGH AND WALK WITH YOUR SHOULDERS BACK, YOU CAN TAKE A BIG FIRM GRASP OF YOUR FUTURE AND DRAG YOURSELF CLOSER TO IT!!! IS PMO IN YOUR FUTURE?!?!?! HELL NAH BROTHER!!! NOW GET YO DAMN MIND OUTTA THE GODDAMN GUTTER AND SEIZE THE MOTHERFUCKING MOMENT TO BECOME A BETTER PERSON IN WHATEVER FORM THAT TAKES!!!!! HELL YEAH BROTHER!!!

 

Checking in, Day 3/28, Space Wolves.

 

Yesterday I had the most amazing feeling I would like to share. Before this nofap thing I never ever felt this. Yesterday for the first time I felt that you can actually do it. Before that I was saying it but deep down I was not sure. So listen to this... I am tired due to 3 hour sleep the night before. And that is one of the situations where temptations skyrocket right. So I felt this strong urge in myself to M and O. I was in 2 minds and I was tired so was trying to sleep through too. And after about 10-15 min I literally felt as though my body is no more in aroused state and is getting in to stae where PMO is least of my worries. I experienced that very clearly in my body. Never ever did I feel that before.

I thought about it and here is the conclusion I got to. While you are doing PMO your organs never get to that state where they are at there max capacity and hence donot feel these sensations of what i felt yesterday as you relieve that through M. However , the nature has that mechanism in place and we never got to the point where it sort of triggered and taken over. Because we so strongly stupidly believe in internet rubbish that P and M is very normal etc etc. What a load of crap. Anyway as the body gets stronger and body takes it's natural rhythm it should start to feel like what I explained above.

Really so glad by all this


Awwwoooooooooooooo

Strength and respect to the wolf pack and fellow travelers.

I would like to make a very clear distinction here about the experience yesterday. Yesterday was something like muscle memory thing whereby my body experienced that state with conscious awareness.
Before I was conscious on a mental level that if you wait it out , the urge goes and all. It worked and I was aware but I never ever experienced it consciously through my body . It was a blessing from Allah. Truly and honestly.

 

Checking in for Space Wolves
Some urges start to kick in but im staying strong!

 

I would like to say 2 things and please donot take this lightly as I am really hoping that you will give this some thought

1- Forgive yourself
2- this world is beautiful. Just look arround you. Come out of yourself and hold your head high but with humility as our start is from a drop and our end is dust. You and I are just dots as compared to this whole earth.and the earth is like a dot as compared to the universe. So our problems are even smaller then that. Just breath in and breath out feel the strength in your arms and legs. Feel your beating heart and feel that you are still here. Just carry on.