The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Checking in on day 16!

 

Day 112 complete. Missed a couple days I think. Things have been crazy busy lately. Dealing with stress but thankful that I haven't let that be a trigger to relapse. Lots of prayer and using new ways of coping that I've learned from therapy and stuff. Praise God.

 

Gandalf's history to entertain you while you are having a nice cup of tea !

 

Day 9.
Working a lot and suffering temptations, but I must be concentrated.

Sts. Teresa of Avila and Teresa of Lisieux, pray for us.

 

Day 160!

 

Day 20,

Woohoooo! Day 20! Been extremely active and just sitting down at the computer for the first time today. Will be doing plenty of homework after dinner here soon so I look forward to staying mindful, kind and compassionate. Ran 5.5 miles in the morning, but thinking tomorrow will be a rest day.

Best to you all Fellowship!

 

Checking in as a hobbit! Hope all is well with the group!

 

Day 34

Another unproblematic day - I did get quite bored late in the afternoon which could have made things difficult, but thankfully my attention was on other things than PMO.

Not long now until I’m singing of the Misty Mountains cold!

 

Day 199

 

Day 27 trod on

 

Day -44

 

Day 3 (terrible HOCD episode)

 

Hey guys havent been on in ages and starting fresh again! Had a couple bad weeks with personal stuff and relapsing involved but im done with it and want to start anew.

Day 1 checkin!

 

Day 8 complete!

Short check-in today: Life is busy, I'm tired, and God is good.

 

Relapsed last night.
0/90
What does the great eye command?

 

Learn from this experience for this is the way out of it. What circumstances especially mental and emotional led to it, what were /or was the trigger(s) in your environment, how do you feel after it happened and what is your plan to overcome it if the same situation that created it repeats itself? It's your job to do it. If you won't do it no one will and the PMO ring will forever reign in your soul.Just do it mate!

 

I’ve failed. But I am still happy. Back to square one. But it is still amazing for me to know that I can reach day 9 and that life is so much better without porn.

So I’ve learn that I am really triggered by the girls name. and after I saw some random meme with a specific name, I didn’t even realize what I was doing. And after that I’ve binged really hard. like… 4 hours and 6 PMO hard. so now I fill empty and kind of sad. But it still feels good to be in this process.

I hung a calendar next to my bad and I mark a big red X after a day with no PMO and it just looks so good. And I think that because of that I don’t feel so horrible about being back to day 0, because I know that I did not erase all I’ve done.

Good luck my brothers. I will join you back on Hobbiton in 15 days.

 

Checking in on Day 60.

 

Day 01

 

Day 58. I have been really anxious the last couple of days and the cravings have been the strongest yet. As soon as I begin to feel anxious and craving PMO I busy myself. I go to the gym, clean my apartment, read, write, run, or do any activity that forces me to change the channel. It works really well. The more I do it, the easier it is to fight the cravings. I would love to have another flatline period but it seems that those days are over. The next 32 days are going to be a challenge. I am looking forward to the growth that this challenge will bring about.