Day 48! Dang it's like the longer I abstain from PMO, the more powerful I feel as if I'm Goku charging up a kame hame haaa except instead of releasing that power, I'm absorbing it and becoming stronger. Let's make the best of this weekend brothers..aim for one more day.
Day 0. I have been on nofap from last 5 years till day couldn't beat the addiction. Don't know when I will be free of it. But I won't give up. I know if not today ... Tomorrow is another day.
Day 3/90 Had trouble sleeping last night and almost cracked. But the feeling of accountability from being apart of this community kept me strong.
56 days done, slacking on posting on here, but at least have been having days full of stuff other than porn and fantasizing, which is good. So far so good, need to keep my head and heart in the game for one more day
Day 28/90. I was able to finish up a hobby project yesterday so that was exciting! It was a 3 month project. But at the same time it made me wonder if I did a good job or if I did something wrong and didn't do it right. And I know I just need to be okay with learning and not being the best because I know I'm improving and getting better but I want to be perfect. I don't want my identity to be in my work or hobbies. I want my identity to be in Christ. But I often become so focused on my work or hobbies I often inevitably end up making those things my identity and when I fail or perceive failure then it's heartbreaking. I hate that. I end up crawling back to porn using it to make me feel accepted because I just can't handle life on life's terms. UGHHHHHHH. Thanks for listening family.