Space Marine February - Team Deathmatch (CLOSED)

That’s the Spirit. Keep going, you got this. Keep that fighting spirit lit!!

 

It dosen’t come instantly, for me after eating spicy stuff it takes about 20-30 minutes until it hits, but yeah everyone is different

 

@Sebbrix tomorrow 30 days..! Keep going man!!

 

Check in! Had a close call today, but I pulled through.

 

I took nearly 2hrs yesterday, lsitening to some music and writing down all my fears (sexual-, career, and personalitywise) and analysed/respondet to them.
Of cause there are many uncertainties in life. But there are also ways to maximise your chances and also very certain things (Like PMO holding you back and making things worse on multiple levels, whilst doing nothing good at all)

 

It's been couple of weeks since I restarted this streak. I will be taking a break for a while in line with @Primaris advice on electronic fasting. I will definitely be avoiding the chilis and choclate during this period. See you all in a bit.

God speed to the wolf pack.

Awwwwooooooo

 

Check in for the black templars

 

Checking in for the Black Templars!

Chilis and chocolate are naturally arousing to us, so what happens...when the two are combined?! A few years ago I discovered that chili chocolate bars are a thing, and that I really like it. One of my friends found out and now she gets me a bar of spicy chocolate every year for my birthday.

 

Check in day 8 for the Blood Angels, still feeling good in spite of my chilli adventure yesterday!

 

Checking in for Dark Angels!
I am having very lazy morning, watching Australian Open, probably going to watch it for a lot of hours, I simply love tennis.

And having some thoughts.
I noticed I can realize whats going on faster and break the chain.

I feel the constant tension.
Is it even beneficial?

I am having some 2nd thoughts/doubts.
I am still pretty sure that what I am doing is unhealthy. At least these 2things:
1) prone masturbation
2) the fantasies I masturbate to

Honestly if I masturbated normal way and had normal fantasy like visualizing normal sex without all the porn stuff, I would not consider going on streaks/challenges like this. I would only watch myself to masturbate 1/week.

But fuck this. I tend to think a lot/too much. I am going to suffer. Going to ride this one through. 90days and lets see what happens.

 

I appreciate your enthusiasm but in my experience white knuckeling only will get you so far.
+ I doubt that you think too much about it. Maybe too unsystematic or even too little?

 

@T0mCrus4der Thx for reaction. Maybe, but that wasnt the intend pount of my post.

I basically wanted to say that if I didnt prone masturbate and used all the porn induced fantasies I would be actually pro fap - just 1x/week.
Because I feel the constant tension and not sure if being horny is the ideal state.
Maybe it will eventually disaspear- the thoughts almost every hour.
After all I masturbated almost every day not so long ago.
So thats why I am continuing to find out whats going to hapoen.

Its true that last week of nofap was the best work week I had in very very long time. So there realy is something to it and I will stick to it.

 

I'd recommend you, to look into sexual transmutation.. BUT I know, that there is a lot of esoteric bs baggage around that topic out there.

But this tention is energy (really) and you can use it intentionally.
And also it's quite an ancient concept. I might even recommend looking more into the concept and philosophy of eros. but I'm not sure what I would recommend out there other than the reforged man course but that's 250 bucks

 

Checking In Blood Angels.

I think now I can understand why I am getting urges to peek and fantasize lately.
These urges were totally gone for some days and are back since few days, probably because I have been eating a lot of spicy Indian-chinese food these days.
Also just now I came to know garlic is prohibited in semen retention. Noodles/manchurians are incomplete without garlic.
I guess for the time I am practicing semen retention I will have to quit eating these foods.

 

Failed again on the 8th today. But this thime I almost doublet my streak therefore I should be clean next month

I need some time to analyze it. will be back later

 

Checking in for the Black Templars. I had a few urges today and the usual thoughts trying to justify a relapse. But it's another day clean and I'm ready to face tomorrow with dedication.

 

@T0mCrus4der thx again for your suggestions. I will watch the ssm youtube playlist.

I am sorry to hear that. Its very good that you went more days without it. Thats progress! And thats the only thing that matters!

How it started?
What was the first true issue?
What was the root cause?
Was there any trigger?

I think you got this!

 

I am having thoughts every time I have down time. But I notice that something is different. Typically when I have the thoughts I get aroused quickly and start the inner battle.
Now I have the thoughts and dont feel aroused. I feel like I realize that the fantasies are conpletely fucked up and rather than aroused I feel weird and disguted.
Also noticing that erection is not strong like always.

Some work in front of me and then bed time routine.

Letso go guys!

 

Normally would have stayed off tonight, since I'm trying to reduce my time on social media, but I felt compelled to come tonight to celebrate 30 days - the first time I've managed a month in a long time! I also heard today that I got a distinction in my second masters degree, so today is overall a very good Monday!

Just gonna share a thought that I had today, would love to hear your thoughts on it, regardless of whether your agree or disagree with it. Part of what makes NoFap forums work, but also something damaging about them, is that it's all totally anonymous and we are able to talk about things that we feel uncomfortable discussing with people close to us. I would never, for example, talk about my struggles with most people in my life (I spoke about it with a handful of people before, but only the people I trust most). However, whilst that opportunity to get stuff off your chest can help with the fight against porn addiction and masturbation, it can also lead to a mental attitude that makes it harder to share things with people in the real world, which can lead to becoming more closed off. I wonder whether the goal, alongside fighting the struggle that we're all here for, is to open up more with people in our daily lives, if we really want to experience the benefits of the battle we're undertaking. We should share these struggles with our inner circles and have deeper understanding with the people around us, rather than bottling things up and letting them out on these forums. I believe it's important to be honest with the people we interact with, and I have every intention of opening up about this sort of thing with my housemate and good friends. Would be interested to get peoples perspectives on this sort of thing?

 

Checking in, Day 8/28, Space Wolves.