Space Marine February - Team Deathmatch (CLOSED)

Checking in, Day 21/28, Space Wolves.

 

Day 22 checking in for the black templars.

 

Checking in, Dark Angels!

 

Check in day 22 for the Blood Angels, things are pretty f***ing bleak here, the sky is a dark grey colour, it's raining, we're waiting for the PM to tell us when we can come out of lockdown and it's not looking good, and as always I'm trying to stay sane working from home

 

Checking in for the Black Templars.

The strongest urges so far this streak came after me today. I spent probably a full hour trying to fight them off, just moving around, starting to work on a bunch of different things trying to get my mind off of it, hitting the Panic Button, you name it. I wound up standing in front of the mirror in my bathroom, and what it came down to was that I was able to really see myself. You're going to stand there, abuse your body, break your streak, let down all those brothers on NoFap, turn away from God, and let this devil beat you up? ...No, I'm not. Something I had heard in church earlier today came back to me: "You're a son of God! There's nothing higher than that."

 

Hey! @Primaris, @Sebbrix, @Rokudaime, @Gallade_Templar.
I saw your posts and I wanna say something to each of you as you all are suffering as I'm am currently(the sensations, urges, other problems etc.)

@Rokudaime- Your sleepiness, No energy, With or without a lump in throat, etc. Is probably the NoFap flatline. I'm saying this because I'm experienced enough to ensure you that. Be strong it'll probably go in 2-3 or 4 days. Stay strong till them. And when you will recover from this feeling without relapsing you will get a far greater pleasure than one gets from Porn or you get from any other activity. I can assure you that, so hang in there.

@Sebbrix- Your way of talking is humourous as it usually was("Might convince my mate to be my personal photographer for a few hours one day). It's really humorous. and you ran 11 kilometres it's pretty insane. I will be doomed if I do that someday.

@Primaris- Stay strong man. When you'll come out of the sensations you'll feel "The Pleasure Of Life" which is 100x more pleasurable than the pleasure from PMO.

@Gallade_Templar - You did a good job there "abuse your body, break your streak, let down all those brothers on NoFap, turn away from God, and let this devil beat you up? ...No, I'm not."
I just wanna give a good quote- "Life will not occur the way you want. But you can. And if you can, then you can rule your LIFE"
"We are covered with the most comfortable possessions, that our ancestors could never ever Imagine. But are we the most joyable generation"
Fetch a piece of advice from me: Explore the world of your inner self through meditation.

 

Checking In for Blood Angels.

I dont have any thoughts about relapsing. Not even urges to peek. Its mainly the medicines which are causing the sleepiness and headache is common in cold. I have survived tougher situations, this cold and fever is nothing. Btw thanks for positivity.

 

Reporting for the Space Wolves!
Joy is my default state right now. Though I may oscillate from emotion to emotion in a day due to the inevitable stress this world throws at me, at the end of the day the default emotion is joy. It is a great place to be in. I am much more optimistic about life. Suicidal thoughts that I used to have markedly decreased.

I also just want to be a person of good character and help others for some reason. I have this burning desire to help other people. I don't know why.

 

Checking in, Day 22/28, Space Wolves.

 

Thank you brother! I'm glad that I'm funny even when I'm not trying to be, I'm often seen as the funny one in groups so it's nice to know that it's not always a result of conscious effort! And thanks for the encouragement, but I know that you could do a distance run if you set your mind to it - it has taken me a few months to build to this but I'm a totally average person in many ways, if I can do it then you can too champ! It's kinda terrifying that 11k is only just over 25% of the distance I'll be running in just 7 months, but also really motivating to push me further every week. If I stick to the 10% rule (increase distance by 10% each week) then I could run this marathon by the end of May, but I have until the start of October so I'm going to aim to be ready for a midpoint of about August and then focus on running the distance faster!

 

True man.
it says this is Bibel too: “your own conscience gives you better advice than 7 watchmen on a watch tower.”
Book of Sirach 37:14

 

everytime I see the word “relapsed!”
I feel grossed out and then lose a little hope in this world.

 

Checking in for the black templars.

 

Someone just said something simple, yet it got to me ...:

 

Do you Guys know the series “Limitless”?
This drug “NZT”, when you take it, your brain is using 100% of it’s capacity, you remember everything you ever read or saw or learned, you become limitless.

NoFap is NZT !!!!!
The drug in his hand is NoFap !!

NoFap makes you Limitless .

I’ve seen every episode.
This is my favourite scene:

 

Checking in for the Black Templars!

"Life will not occur the way you want. But you can. And if you can, then you can rule your LIFE!" Thanks, @Patty O’Furniture1289 Good quote!

PMO is all about ourselves: taking what we want, making ourselves feel good. Once we break that habit, the energy still needs to go somewhere, and the most logical place for it to go is out. We're all made for something, made to do something for someone. Once we quit looking inward to our own gross, pitiable, selfish needs, the opportunity arises to replace bad with good. PMO obscures our true selves. Once it is gone we can begin to see how we are all brothers and sisters in Christ.

 

Day 23 check in for the Blood Angels, looks like our path out of lockdown is going to be a long one, not gonna be able to get a haircut until April (having not had one since December)... Went out for a run this morning, felt slow af, but good to get my heart pumping first thing in the day.

Booked in with the physio because my ankle and foot have been painful, hoping to rectify that and feel more comfortable running

 

Checking In for Blood Angels.
I know I am a bit early in here today. Its because I feel somewhat better today and I have a lot of college work to do, so don't think I will get time to check in later.
Only 5 more days in this challenge. Can't wait to end this and get promoted in march challenge.

 

Checking in again. Having a pretty good month so far. Had some temptations yesterday though.

 

Hey! people.
I wanna share something with you and give you a great advice (It's ok if you are not interested and you are the one to make a decision)

The Belief system And watching Television/streaming-

I wanna say that the shows, series, etc. are created by human creativity and imagination. But it pretty fucks our belief system. For instance- In a tv/web series there are various good, wise teachings as "Being human is super"(not real example) and many created or fake beliefs like "I will learn an entire chapter in just a day with great detail" and that's practically impossible. I fucked up my belief system by these, many fake beliefs like I will get superpowers when I have to do an Impossible thing(my desire) by my strong desire to become that". But the shit-content or Fake beliefs of a show varies vastly. As if you watch a movie that has strong cringe moments like an entire army stopped firing or fighting by seeing a crying girl. Then your belief system degrades. And if there are many moments like "A strong belief in one's true self when it counters someone's else's pain". For instance, A person destroying a particular group because someone in that group behaved with him like an 'ANIMAL', but someone who believes in his true self can understand that person's pain and change his way of pursuing life. Even though there are many true beliefs in a show, but ultimately that still degrades our belief system.

I truly recommend not to watch tv/stream. and build our own belief system. Don't you think that many great people emerged when there was no tv? Do you think Stephen Hawkins, Einstein, Nikola Tesla watched Tv to soothe themselves or to gain new beliefs or Ideas instead of imagining their theories or meeting someone in real life to get talks of wisdom? The answer is No. I've experienced this and it's truly a good decision to make.
Some more Info- https://wealthygorilla.com/reasons-to-stop-watching-television/
- https://medium.com/thrive-global/what-happens-when-you-watch-less-television-b7767c65a7d4
- https://www.lifehack.org/articles/p...-you-should-stop-watching-television-now.html

In the last, it's truly your choice. And I'm not anyone who can make you change by force.
Peace