Accountability for All

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It's okay , some wars take months to win

 

I relapsed, I have no one to blame but myself. I was in control but I made a conscious decision to let horny me take over.

Made it to 10 days. I'm at least making it past 20 this time. Its a promise to myself.

 

Everything was going fine, and suddenly I found myself looking at erotica -- for about 3 minutes, before I got into control again. No M or O, but I think the only reason I was reading erotica was because some part of me didn't think it was as bad as P, and shouldn't be counted as such. Wrong! I'm counting this as a relapse, so it won't happen again.

My mind's a bit foggy, but I'm totally in control now. Just to be sure, I won't do anything too boring; I'll watch some Yes, Minister and go to bed early.

 

wow so many comments, guys its fine , best thing is to learn from relapses, what made you trigger and how will you avoid those ? Until you get these answers its all good. Dont depend on your will power , it wont last , atleast for me and majority of people . You gotta create an environment where you wont come in contact with your triggers.

I am on day 4. Feeling calm . Lost productivity again so have to work on that . Grateful for the community , you guys motivate me and i have got an amazing AP too . Would have been much worse without you guys. Lets do it for each other, remember that each of us are accountable for each other . Lets do this . gotta hit triple digits this time.

 

I understand the feeling bro. I hope u post here everyday, will help to keep check on each other.

Yeah buddy , lets do this.

Thats a nice streak bro . You probably lost purpose because you didnt check in here .If u saw How many of us are struggling here, you will probably remember why you started in first place. No worries bro , just dont binge now . Let us know what helped you go 120 days .

Bad health is trigger bro . U have to be more vigilant the next time for this trigger. It happened to me multiple times.

Nice to see that you learnt from it . Dont forget to have good sleep . I used to watch tv series after i relapsed . Because i was too bored but it made it even harder to get from bed , sleep etc .

Dont let it get the best of you bro . U r doing great. keep urself busy .

 

Thank you, what helped me is the freedom plan i created and P blockers, and also the burning desire to become a better person which somehow lost its spark.

I have binged and I shouldn't, but the most important part is I have learned more and updated my plan accordingly.

 

Hey everyone I'd love to join this battle you all are in.

I am in the same exact boat man. Stay strong!

 

Yesterday I got relapsed and today I started my journey again. Today was my day 0. This time i have calculated my all mistakes and situation and this time i am not going to loose. Today I had done my work properly and it was good but still I need to cover a long journey.

 

day 3 done, feeling good, some urges but not too many.
i really need to get some momentum back!

btw its so nice to see so many people joining!
stay strong guyss!

howz everyone doing btw?!

 

Hey bro , you will definitely hit the target, btw as decided you need to appoint an AP.

Nice bro . I hope you go way ahead of your last streak , end this thing this time. Btw whats ur goal?in terms of number of days.

Welcome bro.

Nice to know you have learnt from your mistakes. It will definitely help you to move forward.

 

Day 2 over. Had some hazy fantasies on waking up today and yesterday but nothing that influenced the rest of the day.

 

Started to learn about feeling and how to properly express them, I think it's the reason why I started watching P in the first place

 

You're right! Forgot about that. How do I go about it, if you don't mind?

Day 2/10

I set a goal for some additional help to stay focused this run. The goal is 20 days & then hopefully still stay strong. I had 7 days as a record for a long time but this forum got me to 10 on my first try so at least my last run wasn't all bad even though the outcome was me fking up badly. Hate letting myself down but picking myself up & trying again, only way I'll improve

 

That's a great attitude man! Keep at it!

Just finished Day 1. Had two times where I almost gave into urges. It wasn't so much fishing (which I didn't) as it was almost making the decision to PMO. I guess some part of me still either misses the habit or thinks there's some value left in it. Plus there's the dreaded chaser with annoying urges. I will continue to educate myself about the harm's of porn and re-strengthen my resolve!

Stay strong brothers

 

Day 0.
Just relapsed and masturbated 2 times in the last week. Feeling very bad, guilty.
Tooth paining, man boobs enlarging, lack of motivation, all bad things happening. I am not even angry now, just depressed. I be damned, making simple decisions is taking so long.

I had two successful stints of at least 3 months in last year, without masturbation. There were times I watched porn and did not masturbate, which we count as a reset. I am fat with man boobs, so getting a girl is not even a possibility. There is a girl that I like (already taken), and whenever I see something related to her, I feel extremely attached and stresses. This is a bad thing, an attachment, not the good thing that is love. I cannot remove her picture from my mind....... What to do?

Everything goes down the drain as time passes and I get infatuated. These days, I just see Youtube videos of girls just because they are girls, not because I find their content good. I dont want to watch things just because there are pretty girls in them.

There will be stress in my life, its the nature of my job. I will not to win over stressful things, I cannot afford to resort to these urges.

The least I can do is dedicate my life to work and be a skilled, successful and respected person. I am not after money, I am after the deeper essence of life, and PMO is keeping me from exploring all the wonderful stuff.

I have a wonderful opportunity right now, I have realised that PMO is bad. I have no training of being around girls, and I might be at a place surrounded by them, and that scares me.

I just dont know how to deal with all of this, but its okay, I guess everyone here is fighting against a similar thing. We can fight together! Be smarter together! Have more discipline and self control. Achieve brilliance togther!

Regards
YA

 

I Relapsed after 120 Days of hard mood nofap streak, I feel the guilt you're having right now, it's like nofap is the only thing that matters.

The most important thing that you are aware you have problem with PMO and that's the half of the recovery I believe. If you Fall, learn from it and get back up.

 

heyyy bro! welcome to the squad!

first things first,
lemme tell you this. even if you do nofap, you cant expect life to sort itself out.
this is the biggest problem i feel nofappers have.
they're like, "if you do nofap, life will completely change itself."
and im like, "NO!"
see, obviously, if you've been an addict, and you abstain for a substantial amount of time, it will definitely be life changing, cuz before you had no life outside pmo. but you'll still have to take it from there.

but YOU will have to DO shit.
you want improvement? you will have to take steps in that direction.
NoFap is not the solution to all your problems but it is a start. it is one hell of a start actually.

the good thing about you is that you know where you are going wrong.
stop doing what you know is wrong. improve yourself, girls will come, dw.
trust me, 90% people keep lying to themselves and never admit that their behaviour is wrong.
now, as you said WE WILL FIGHT THIS TOGETHER!

now, if you want to shred your fat,
beginners: http://igorvoitenko.com/bring-sally-up-challenge#!/tab/293272411-1
intermediates: http://igorvoitenko.com/from0to100
i myself am doing the latter, and am currently am on day 15.
P.S.
This is all free of cost. and i am not promoting anything/anyone its just that its helped me A TON, and i thought i'd just share this with you!

 

Hello guys, today was my day 0 of NoFap again I relapsed yesterday and it was very very bad relapse I can't even tell. I think I was not so serious about this NoFap and therefore not took proper steps for it. But this time I will not loose and complete my journey.

 

Bro the thought you shared here is absolutely right our life has become worst because we have invested the most of time of our life in this addiction and now to improve our life we need to invest time in right things.