I want to relapse to start over, feeling guilty!

This isn’t even a setback. You’re 100 percent fine and it sounds like you handled the situation well. Good work.

 

Hey xuking.
I like to think the following.
When it's the hardest not to look at porn, and you still choose the right thing (not to look, obviously), that's when you re-wire your brain.
So, if you manage to stick to your streak, I think that would be most beneficial.

Your choice. It probably won't get easier next time around. You change your future starting from today.

 

It's all up to you. If resetting your counter helps you in the process of quitting porn, then do it. If it will discourage you then keep the counter as it is.

 

I have that too. I also watched picture of lightly-dressed woman during my current streak, but it isn't high-speed internet porn. It's the guilt trying to deceive your brain that you relapsed. Don't believe it!

 

I just recognize the feeling of guilt having looked at, let's call it *porn-related* stuff. But is it lightly dressed women? Is it a just one P picture? If it is like you said, 3 secs, forgive yourself and try to move on the streak. But if the guilt is too heavy, then give in like Hadrian suggests. I just don't know if it would be beneficial to you in the long term. If we follow every excuse along the way, how can we overcome this struggle. It may be the case that your addicted brain rationalize watching P once again.

 

I'd keep it because if I reset it and do a small mistake again, I'll probably get discouraged and that will lead to a real relapse (pmo). But that's me. You know yourself better. I think your brain is tricking you. I wouldn't reset the counter.

 

We're here to help. Glad to hear it resonates with you. Good luck to you too, brother!

 

It’s not better. You’re brain makes you feel guilty to try to get you to relapse. I’ve gone through this. You’re brain tells you it’s too late and it’s basically already a relapse but once you do it you’ll feel 100 times worse

 

You handled it like a star brother. Keep going.....you are on the path of change

 

Great job resisting. Our addiction will say anything to get us to give in to the cravings. It can be very devious and will use any and every emotional trigger to drag us back down. Stay strong.

 

dont restart. youre gonna see things that will trigger you every now and then and you might see something like that again, are you going to keep restarting every time you see something for 3 seconds? i started no PMO and for the first 18 days (not everyday), i was watching P. but my goal is to stop PMO completely. i havent watched P for nearly a week now. take it one step at a time. overtime, itll get easier. you might have some slip ups but it will get easier.

 

I have a confession related to this. I watched pictures of lightly-dressed woman woman this morning (no nudity), and I added a good portion of fantasy to it, spiced up with a few movements in the chair where the table added pressure to my penis. I then had a "spontaneous" emission (although in reality I kind of helped it happen a little bit). So I did not watch porn, nor did I masturbate in the real sense of the word. My brain tells me I have relapsed and makes me feel guilty, so I "might as well" look at real porn.

Did I relapse? Should I feel guilty?