The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Day 1. time for a new dawn

 

Thank you too! I agree, it is great to have this fellowship for support and encouragement.

Good job overcoming those urges. How did you do it?

It is very embarrassing to relapse; I have been there many times and I regret every one. I am glad I came here today instead of relapsing again. I was close, but I did not give in. Stick with your NoFap journey. You can do this!

Onward!

 

279 days the stairs of Cirith Ungol
354 days no PMO, semen retention

 

Checking in Day 4

 

Day 236. Checking in!

 

Alright you bastards. I'm back and restarting today. Day 0.

 

Day 12, trod on!

 

Hello all. One of the other challenges I do said not to consider my reset yesterday a reset, since if I did ejaculate, it was by accident. As I said in my post, I was super sensitive down then, and sometimes, I mindlessly touch myself (probably out of habit). It is not so much masturbation at least not how I normally masturbate, and usually I realize what I am doing and stop in time. However, last night, I was so aroused that assuming this is what happened, I am not sure if I should label it an accident (as it was mindless) or as a reset as I am (because it was still potentially touching myself that led to me orgasm). It feels like such a defeat to be honest, because I did not realize what I was doing (and I need to address that, so that I am catching myself a head of time), and a part of me is like "if you were going to masturbate, why did you not just masturbate?" So now I feel like crap, and I feel like I am in limbo. Responsible for the orgasm, and yet, not fully conscious of what I did. What do you think @RiseToGreatness ? Everyone is telling me that it was not me making the conscious decision to relapse, and that as it was an accident and not to images, so I should not reset, but if I am going to return my counter to 13 days now, I want to make sure that the leaders of each challenge are okay with that?

Best,
Mathman1994

Edit: I don't know what to count yesterday. It was a bad day, and I was not deliberately masturbating, and my mom always says that when there are big changes in life, I tend to sabotage myself, and because it felt so good to have that orgasm (assuming that is why I all of a sudden felt better), I feel like I should feel bad for that. In that case, I am just punishing myself for being human and having certain involuntary responses to slight stimuli such as feeling my erection (which is painful for me due to overzealous masturbation when I was younger causing scar tissue to build up.

So I am going to return my counter to day 13 and remain and Urak-Hai. Hopefully that works?

 

Day 0,

Paid for P blocking software this morning. I slipped up Fellowship, and am working on righting the ship. If I am willing to pay for P then I should be willing to pay for a P blocker, and so I did. Up and licking my wounds, time to put one foot in front of the other.

Best to you all!

 

Had a fall fellowship. One slip. Not the end of the world. I am not back to square one. Healed a lot in the last month and a bit from my 2-15 day and 1-5 day streak. Did not even nearly bring down the foundations built. Keepin at er. 1 day at a time. With Gods grace and building of healthy habits I will get through this. March on soldier.

 

day 31

 

Starting from beginning

D1 Wednesday,

Will be back

 

Checking in. Was testing something on an app and pornographic images popped up. I so badly wanted to get off to them, but I closed out and came on here instead. I think I just need to log off my devices tonight, and start again tomorrow when I am more clear headed. Unfortunately, I have a student tonight, so I might see if he can reschedule, as I am feeling a little off right now.

Best,
Mathman1994

Edit: I got off work, so I am logging off for the night

 

Day 133. Feeling good today. Overall I had a really positive day and am looking forward to hump day Almost halfway through the week! Keep up the good work everyone!