The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Day 340

 

Day 1

 

Day 13

Feeling groggy, couldn't get to sleep on time last night. I slept in this morning, which maybe I shouldn't have. Oh well, I must move forward.

Trying to keep a positive attitude. I've been praying frequently throughout the day, basically praying one decade of the rosary every couple hours or so. I worked out last night and that was great. I did some writing this morning, but still feel like I'm procrastinating with regards to really jumping in and finishing the project.

I really hope for great things in the coming year, and I know I have the potential to achieve them. I just need to put my knowledge and ability into action. This is often hard. I overthink a lot.

 

I stayed the course of waking up at 6h50 AM but I I made the mistake of reading in bed so I only fell asleep around 24h00, which made me quite tired today, and it showed with a decrease in my productivy and excitment. Nevertheless I was still able to get some work done and I am currently ahead on my Uni work so it should not set me back to much, I will definitely make sure i get some more sleep tonight so I can be more refreshed tomorrow.

I'm currently on the fence on how to approach this new "go" at NoFap, on one hand I am thinking I should be engaging with rebooting content on a daily basis (I reached my highest streak doing that), but on the other I would also like to achieve a more seamless reboot (I don't want to be constantly thinking of NoFap, which happens quite easily when you "consume" alot of reboot material/information) - maybe I will try to only engage with with every other day.

What would you guys recommend?

Checking in for day 2

 

Try to keep it short and down to something you really going to do, because a little will build your confidence up and one too much is going to do just the opposite. Maybe start with only one or two'points' on the list.

 

Checking in Friends -
No P Day 174
No M Day 3
No O Day 3

Survived the worst ever chase urges yesterday, by reminding myself that if the mind craves PMO due to repeated fishing, it can be taught to stop urges by repeated resisting & just saying NO - and it worked.

Also arranged a swim early this morning, which forced me to go to bed early last night, and I felt way better today. I will do the same tonight and tomorrow morning.

The weekend will be the big test, but at least the chase is now over!

Cold Shower - Yes
Exercise - Yes
Reflections - Yes
Procrastination - No
Vanity - No
Excuses - "everyone is doing it" - nobody with true self confidence is
Mindful Breathing - Not Yet
Sleep Pattern - Healthy Early to Bed & Early to Rise
Mindful Eating - Up to tonight yes but just had a big feed from the chipper
Personal values - Do good and bit by bit I will become good
Freedom Fight - Not Yet
No need to even think of Gollum right now, because I am further down than him

 

Day 0 - I have not had a full relapse in over 24 hours. In fact, I have not PMO'd or M'd in over a day and a half, but last night from around 10:30PM-12AM, I browsed the internet oogling women I saw on social media and though there was no nudity involved, I spent an hour/hour-and-a-half engaged in this, so I reset my counter. I am proud of myself for this though because I stopped (even if it was a reset, but it was not a relapse which I would count as PMO or MO or even edging. I was just looking at photos). While it sucks to still be day 0, it is a day 0 because I looked at non-nude photos, not day 0 because I relapsed which does feel good.

Best,
Mathman1994

 

Another day of some stress, i found out that wrist sprain was worse than sprain that thing is called ganglia cyst. What a bloody scary thing !Fingers crossed-I'll try to treat it like a sprain and see if it gets better. Walked some 6 miles today,few pull ups on an updated hanging board, meditated, taken cold shower. A feeling is that if life's stuck , constipated, have difficulty in letting past go...

 

Checking in on Day 158.

 

297 days

 

Day 45 check-in (Attempt 4) - The pass of Caradhras.

 

Day 7

I’m an Uruk-Hai!

Life is still kind of good, except that (without going into politics) war and combat is a really really shitty situation for NoFap, and it’s so wired to hear booms going off and realize that my brain is going: “you should look at porn now”. Because it is the thing I do when I’m stressed.

Good luck for everyone, and least hope for peace.

 

Day 5

 

Day 3 Check in

 

302 days dwarf king
377 days no PMO, semen retention

 

day 1 in Barad-Dur

 

Checking in Day 27

 

Day 259, checking in.

 

Day 16 of No PMO. Feeling like I will become White Wizard this time.

 

Day 20. God Bless you All