THE INTERSTELLAR CHALLENGE !

You can do it!

 

Day 1

 

Day 5 - Drone Catcher

I had a dream that I relapsed last night, then I woke up and found the link I dreamt about on my laptop, then I woke up again and realized that that was also a dream and I was still clean. Scary dream, but a relief. I hope to get a B in my topology course and an A in my algebra course (as it is finals week). I am not sure how I will do in my botany course, but my grades are decent in that course, so that is good. Still feeling good from my Saturday morning realization of feeling like I know who I am. l have had some urges, but I am tracing the origins of those urges and that is saving a ton of heartache from relapse.

Best,
Mathman1994

 

Day 2

 

Day 39.
Going the mile. Reaching the atmosphere of millers planet. Only 5 days away.

 

Day 6 - I got up at 3pm today (so 45 minutes ago). I went to the cafe and now I am going to do some final things for the semester, and then I will get an early nights sleep tonight and get up at 5am tomorrow to shower (as I have a 7:45am final). I graduate on Saturday and then I will be off for the summer except for work. I am so thrilled to finally be finished with undergrad, and though I am noticing some urges to PMO, I am not doing that, I am just breathing and letting the urge roll over me.

Best,
Mathman1994

 

Day 0 - Back to Farmer

Masturbated to a non-nude photo after becoming overcome with urges and unable to trace the origin to deal with them

 

You don't need to know the origin. Urges are something that just happens. We all get them friend. Nothing new under the sun. Hope your ok.

 

@hoping_cannon hey pal hope your ok?

 

I am doing better today. I ended up viewing actual porn later in the night, in a sort of "eff it" phase because I was feeling discouraged from my earlier fall and it seemed like the "right" thing to do. It felt good for the short period that I was doing it, but as usual, once it was over, I was regretful. With that said, I had a hard time sleeping after that due to thoughts of my fall, but I woke up at 5am, took a cold shower, read a little, practiced some Spanish and then I took my final final exam of my undergraduate career (and passed), So it is looking like I will finish with 2 A's and a B, (or at least an A, an AB, and a B). I know that urges will come, and I realized after the fact that I was dealing with the stress of knowing that I would never PMO again. With that said, I realize now that I do not have to take such a permanent approach. I just have to say, "I will not PMO now"

best,
Mathman1994

 

Congratulations on the exams. That is great. Also sounds like you've had some good insight. It's these little moments where we get truth revealed to us, these truths set us free.
Keep your chin up you'll be ok.
I have taken up a phrase similar where I remind myself that I am not a masterbator.
Has been very helpful.

 

We are days out my Friend!
Yep I'm doing great. Life keeps getting better and better

 

I am doing well. I will be 3 days clean tonight. I graduated from undergrad yesterday and I will end up with at least two ABs and hopefully a B or AB in Algebra

Best,
Mathman1994

 

Do not worry about the dream! They can be a bit frustrating at the time. But in time they get less raunchy. Last one I had I was holding like a coaster from a tea cup. Go figure where the inspiration for that came from.
I woke up and thanked God for it ! Anyway they won't always be leaving you feeling guilty and triggered. It's just your brain remembering something of the past. Resist it and it will go away.
You will be ok I'm so happy for you friend keep going. And I will do more than wish you well I will keep praying for you

 

Good stuff. He sure does help us. I also woke up extremely triggered this morning. I think maybe it's my natural ah morning thing returning but it took me by surprise. Just had to practice thinking about something else and also utterly refusing to believe the lie that it would be worth it.
Keep rejecting the lies and this will help you through.
Indeed I'm looking forward to millers planet!

 

Day 0 - I have not had a full relapse in over 24 hours. In fact, I have not PMO'd or M'd in over a day and a half, but last night from around 10:30PM-12AM, I browsed the internet oogling women I saw on social media and though there was no nudity involved, I spent an hour/hour-and-a-half engaged in this, so I reset my counter. I am proud of myself for this though because I stopped (even if it was a reset, but it was not a relapse which I would count as PMO or MO or even edging. I was just looking at photos). While it sucks to still be day 0, it is a day 0 because I looked at non-nude photos, not day 0 because I relapsed which does feel good.

Best,
Mathman1994

 

Awesome work mate. Proud of you

 

Day 47. Are we there yet? @hoping_cannon How about now?... What about now?...XD. Looking forward to splashing down on millers planet. I might go buy the interstellar DVD. Would be nice to have a copy of it. It means so much more to me now