The Jedi Temple (open)

Day 1, Youngling

Allow me to explain lol. Lately I've been trying to break out of the NoFap counter mentality because I think it is starting to outlive its usefulness for me. There are a lot of benefits to using the counter, but also some downsides. I've been in a series of viscous cycles since the pandemic started and I think the counter is enabling it in a way. For example, if I "slip up" and pull up porn, a part of my brain tells me, "Well, if I have to reset my counter anyway, I may as well go all the way and fap to what I just saw. And then maybe fap a few more times and reset my counter first thing in the morning." Another way is the notion of "starting over" when you relapse, which is not true and psychologically very discouraging.

What ended up happening is that I eventually did fully relapse after a few days, but not without putting up a fight. Now that that happened, I'm ready to commit 100% and not "slip up" again. The first step is peeking and it's a slippery slope from there. The best way to fight porn imo is to not take that first step.

In short, I'm not trying to minimize the damaging effects of looking at porn. You should absolutely cut it out and I hope to reach a point where I never look at porn again. However, we are all works in progress and the question is what do we do if we fail and look at porn and we realize we messed up before we allow ourselves to fully relapse. Do we roll over to its power and end up in a binge cycle or try to pull yourself away from it?

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