I want to destroy my curiosity

I came up with a new fetish for myself to enjoy. Like it's always have been inside me and I just discovered it (while doing semen retention lol)

Also I have remembered a good anime that should have brilliant hentai doujins.

So, out of nowhere, on the end of the 2nd day, I already have a huge plan for relapsing. I don't have a lot motivation to fight lust, but have motication to check some erotical materials.

I see two solutions: bad and worse.
Bad: just watch this stuff so I am not curious anymore.
Worse: just relapse lol

I am a bad warrior

 

Update: I checked the things I wanted to check. I am not interested anymore and I, for some reason, saw the true face of pornography. Vulgar and cheap.

 

Redirecting porn enthusiasm towards rebooting sounds too good to be true. It is impossible.

Also, I am bad at critical thinking, and I think it's the reason I became religious. Or maybe not. Maybe it's because Rabbi offers me tasty food on Shabbath.

 

Pornography is consuming me. Drawn hentai looks so good

It would be so good if it wasn't arousing