The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Morning of day 11

 

Day 4. Its all or nothing.

Orc IN THE LORD OF THE RINGS CHALLENGE

 

Go go go

 

Here is a bit from reddit.

 

Do you want to know what really happened? You have chosen to think and believe that you are alone and separate, that's where you allowed yourself into temptetion. The truth is we are never alone unless we have chosen to believe in this lie...and we have everything we need at every single moment of our day, to live our dreams we have just to believe it then there is nothing to it

 

day 28
The great cause of my urges are my responsibilities, when avoid it , the urges increase, now i took action and wow i feel much better.
Is feels like "i don't need the ring anymore".

 

This attitude really not helpful and is a hallmark of addictive people. You might work to change it into something positive and be happy with what you got.

...and I might work on it, and we all might work on it for there is a reason we are here. It's like for example 'all' would be to eat yourself super full whilst 'nothing' would be to starve yourself, both are not healthy for us. Moderation in everything is the harmonious way.

 

No they don't really work tried these stuff before only to dive headfirst into SM latter, so that instead of only dopamine from lust you gonna get endorphins from pain and get even stronger addiction. These are all silly 'trojan horses' which gonna make you to want to see if they really work ontly to fall into temptation. Please brothers don't even think of trying that s**t, I paid for it by relapsing multiple times with using them ,save yourself by avoiding my mistake.

 

I think you haven't yet understood what lust is and how it takes hold on you.
...and I did what I did, but you have set a trap for brothers with your post which you wouldn't have done if tried it firsthand and looks like you having fun which really indicate a reckless -'don't give a damn' attitude towards your own actions.

 

Day 2

 

Haha, that had me cracking.

EDIT: Didn't read the replies by Slider8. Just to clarify, of course I don't actually find it funny that people are into femdom, SM or similar uses this kind of shit for real, those are horrible fetishes to have. I have read some threads about it here on this forum, and it can destroy people's life, so I would of course advice against trying the stuff in the actual video.

 

Was tempted to give in. Resisted, went for a 45 min walk instead. I feel much better now.

 

Day 2! Going good...even though, my energy is low and going back into productive habits is transitioning quite slow. As iI'm in a transition phase and can't quite seem to make a big self pump up! Let's see tomorrow!

 

Checking in Day 18

 

In just one hour, I will be 17 days clean from P and 12 days clean from MO. This morning was the latest I have gotten up in a few days at 9:45AM. I slept through my 8AM Spanish class which really sucked, and in the past I would have PMO'd to deal with the shame I felt from missing something I signed up for. Instead, I will use it as motivation to get up between 5-6:30AM so that I can start my day off right and not miss anymore appointments. I will be starting work at 8:30AM Monday through Thursday starting in a week and a half and I will work until 6pm Monday to Wednesday and 3pm Thursdays. That will not leave a ton of time for fun things, so I will need to get up early those days so that I have a time to shower, meditate, and hopefully work on my novel for two hours. That will also mean that Monday to Wednesday, if I go to sleep at 9pm, I will only have three hours to study for my proficiency exams, eat dinner, and decompress before I go to sleep. I will barely have any time in the day to do my goals, so I will have to make that time count. It will lead to little time for PMO or MO, however, that means that I have to be hyper cognizant during down times, as when I am stressed, I am more likely to PMO. I am really nervous about finishing studying for the proficiency exams, and though I know that I need to prioritize one of them over the other, if I can pass both, it will advance my career greatly this fall. After I post on the various challenges I am a part of on NoFap, I am going to sign off the computer for the night, work on some thank you notes, eat dinner and go to bed. Today is a bit of a wash, and I am not feeling well, so I am not going to press it, and instead I am going to just rest for the evening and be up before the sun tomorrow morning.

Best,
Mathman1994

 

checking in - one week down, thank God - “A temptation resisted is a true measure of character.”
Papillon (1973) – Louis Dega (Dustin Hoffman)

 

Day 21,

Severe urges, keeping active. Working on keeping strong.

Thank you super amazing Fellowship!