The Lord of the Rings Challenge

day 9

 

Day 1/500 done

 

day 35
I haved a little problem last night and i usually used the pmo for calm me down.
This time was different i didn't used, cause as members of the fellowship already says this will not solve the problem and you feel more down when you do it , it doesn't worth.
So i confronte the problem with their consequences as a man in this case as a elf.
F*** off pmo

 

Thanks for the response bro! You are correct, paws can go up to 2 years and within that recurring symptoms can show up. I should of clarified the stomach pains is not from PAWS, that’s from adverse reaction to fish oil supplement, it’s just a matter of it getting out of my system now. Half life is 2 days.

As for sleep, yes I go to bed at the same time and I’ve been gradually waking up a bit earlier from week to week.

I exercise every other day, weights/cardio. My routine is nowhere where it use to be in the past, but I’m progressing every week. I also stretch everyday for about 10 mins when I wake up and do a yoga posture stretch for another 10 at the end of the day.

My diet is on point, I eat no added sugar or trans fat. But I do think that the last few days due to the fish oil my stomach is more sensitive to certain foods like legumes.

Yeah I speak to friends/family everyday.

As for the stress, I mediate daily sometimes close to 2 hours. I’ve made quite a bit of progress, I use to have severe anxiety at the end of of my addiction with PMO and also in the first bit of withdrawal. From a 10 it’s gone down to a 2, and sometimes not even present.

I got my blood work done back at the beginning of my journey in November, vitamin D levels were fine, albeit on the lower end of healthy. So I doubled my intake since then. My b12 levels were good and since the I’ve even added fish to my diet to boost that department. I may go for another blood test to check out all my b vitamins at some point.

Certain guys in PAWs report 24/7 symptoms especially stress and even of fatigue for nearly 2 years during their reboot. For myself, I get a lot of breaks and the stress is not as bad and I can manage it. For me this last period just sucked because of what happened with my fish oil supplementation. The vibrations that I mentioned are in relation to anxiety/stress. Mind you back at the beginning I would have that and panic attacks with severe tension lol. So I’m good with what I’m feeling now.

I appreciate you message my friend and I know the positive intention behind it. I've seen a lot of people 1+year posting about how they still have every single symptom etc and it makes me feel that they do nothing else then just nofap, no active assistance to their recovery. I'm trying to be as active as my body allows me during recovery.

thank you and hope your day is going well!

 

Who was milarepa?

Milarepa was a murder black magician and at old age decided to change ways and lived alone in a cave to become a tantric master. He is one of the most wise and realiced persons I've read, considering his past it's quite an achievement.

He was also a poet he gives good tips about life and deep wisdom

His only book is called hundred thousand songs of Milarepa

 

331 days

 

Checking in. Be well everyone!

 

Well, I’m no longer a fallen king, and have emerged into Orcdom after completing Day 1 of my new streak, though the road ahead will be hard and long.

But I am unafraid, for I will do better this time.

 

Nazgûl - Day 0

I'm in!

 

Thank you bro and right back at you!

 

...another day and I feel sleepy like drunk even though the sun is still shining, but mental concentration through the day is just brilliant( if i have interest in something) and the double long cold showers( over 2 minuter each, maybe I become less sensitive to cold?),meditation, 8 hours in bed( its so important and PMO wreaks it...this is alone big enough reason to never indulge in it), and half day of studies and long walks .

 

Day 23 no P
Day 18 no MO

I had some urges to MO earlier today. Was watching some scenes from a movie on a streaming service that was supposed to be funny, but it was not and there was some nudity. Anyway, I watched the movie for a few minutes, but it occurred to me that the only reason there was nudity in it was to detract from the fact that the movie is poorly written, and that was disappointing as the trailer looked like it could be good. For now, I am trying to avoid movies/tv shows with nudity as I am just starting my recovery, and though I found it less triggering than I would in the past, it did briefly occur to my to throw in the towel and relapse. However this group (and a couple others) kept me going as I did not want to come on here and say that I screwed up and relapsed, so I turned off the movie and went to a meeting for porn addicts instead. Now I am still clean, having made it through yet another challenge. I am proud of that because sometimes we see triggering stuff, and we have a choice, give into the urges it elicits, or come on here/talk to an accountability partner instead. I keep thinking about how I am 14 days away from beating my hard mode record (at least in recent history), and I do not want to throw that all away for a quick release of dopamine. It is not worth it.

Best,
Mathman1994