Loneliness

I'm sorry. I'm feeling kinda down myself, so... I kinda get it. Maybe hoping for something better would be a benefit to you. Write one thing down that you've always wanted to. Sailing across the Atlantic, going to every formula 1 grand-Prix, something crazy that's almost impossible. Write it down, and work on it every day. Whatever is. Till you get it. Put it on the wall. on your fridge. wherever. to remind yourself that this is what you're working for. I'll do the same. And maybe one day we'll both be finally doing whats on that stupid piece of paper and look back and laugh. It's not too late.

 

PM me if you want to talk about life.

 

I'm sure the OP is not in a state to receive this but as always it's just whoever that might happen to read the post. The idea of a happy ending, not just in this context but life in general is kind of responsible for a lot of expectations, and therefore disappointments. If we could change the bias to happy BEGINNING of anything that would be an interesting twist. Whenever something ends something new is always beginning so it's really what you're focusing your attention on. It may not be nice, or we may just not know how it will turn out, but if we're not fixated on the goal all the time it might just open something up. The idea of starting off the morning with some kind of practice is similar to this, just on the scale of the cycle of the day but it works on anything else including events and life changes.

 

Maye you could try to get a little closer to your family, talk to them and open to them.

 

Travel. Spend your time out. Look after your kids. Make friends. Look at your job if you want to change it etc. Your back pain could be because you're having a deficiency Vitamin d, calcium or some other vitamins or minerals! Masturbating and Stressful life depletes your body of nutrients such as vitamins and minerals. Stop watching porn or masturbating. Good luck!