The Lord of the Rings Challenge

day 48
All under control , none urges will stop me to reach my last streak .
Now i think, if someone feeds the urges then what?
The urges will want more and more , he will never say "that it's enough" so why feed it.

 

Hi, Slider!
I feel more stable today, comapred to few days ago. Have been focusing on BRACE and FASTER tool from Freedom Fight, it's very promising and I'd recommed to guys who're struggling with urges. I think that's it. You do well in your recovery brother.

 

The urges are becoming stronger and they require an outlet. Unfortunately, pain seems to continue to linger on in my body, even after the operation... it's weird, as it seems I cannot remember how it feels to feel normal.
I'll continue my duty as an alive creature though and persevere.

 

Day 31, trod on!

 

Is it strange that I find more wisdom in fiction than I ever did in "Self-Help" books? Probably not, but that quote is a good reminder. Because the withdrawal is kicking in. Think I'll go read, cheers friends!

 

Checking in. Another scorching hot day so will be spending plenty of time in the water. No shortage of triggers in summer time lake weather, so urges are present, but manageable. I continue working on being a man I am proud of.
Be well everyone!

 

Day 1 of my third streak completed, back to Orcdom

 

Yeah I think it's effective if you are consistent and thorough with your check-ins, but for the emergency there to work you got to have APs. I find their educational videos quite brilliant in explaining the effects on the brain!
Although to be honest I prefer accountability here because it feels more alive and populated.
...all we can do to have a meaning in our lives is to move in the direction of where we want to be.

 

Do you mean the evil thoughts require evil action? They will surely get it if you keep them in your mind. But on the other hand -It's your mind after all and you decide what you want to keep there,don't you?

 

I never thought about it that way. I will try to be in bed by 8PM tonight, and if I do that then I will have just under 11 hours of sleep when I get up tomorrow. I got almost 11 hours of sleep again last night, so there may be something to what you are saying. As it is, I created a points system for myself to earn points for various activities and to lose points for others. For example, a relapse is -50 and a reset (peeking, edging, etc) is -10. It takes a while to accrue points, but if I complete my daily health goals (reading, journaling, gratitude meditations, porn recovery work, etc) I get 20 points (with each of those being one point a piece.) I am realizing that if I need 11 hours of sleep at night, then punishing myself for getting up after 11 hours of sleep is fruitless, so I am thinking that I should instead grant myself 20 points excluding sleeping goals, and give myself bonus points if I manage to get up earlier and get to bed earlier, for my own sanity.

Thanks!
Best,
Mathman1994

 

Was able to make it one week. Great seeing all the growth and positive comments here! This group is awesome.

 

Day 5. My day was... Not great, not terrible. Maybe tomorrow will be better

 

I fail day after another

 

day 13
I feel real drained. i swam again today
I won't swim tomorrow, so I don't get too much sun.
Plus 50% chance of rain tomorrow :/

 

Day 135

 

Day 15

Hobbit day! Time to set out for Bree. Wish I had some pipe tobacco!

Accomplished today: cold shower, meditation, prayer, walking, healthy eating, some writing, some errands run, 8 hours sleep last night.

No real cravings, thank God. I'm a little stressed, partly because of a couple things beyond my control. I'm trying to let go of worry over such things.

I am thankful for rest and good sleep!

 

@Slider8 I need an accountability partner for BRACE. Shall we do this?

You'll be a perfect accountability partner.