The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Checking in.

 

Day 161 no PMO. I had a very disturbing wet dream last night. I keep telling myself that I was asleep so I can’t be held accountable for my thoughts but I’m still very disappointed in myself and scared for what it means about me. You know how people say “your true self comes out when you are drunk”? I wonder if the same is true for your dreams. I hope not.

 

day 82
Old streak reached

 

13 days, my best streak for almost a year

 

Wow this thread is ridiculous but I'm also reidiculous so parhaps it's all good then. I had a six month streak but fell off and didn't learn and practice enough of what I learned on here. This time I'm doing it right and getting serious about the svadyaya of nofap. (study and practice).

No shortcuts.

 

Day 65, trod on!

 

And just when I reach Day 9, I then go and let stress at the thought of two upcoming video-call interviews make me mess around with anal play and ejaculate. Back to Mordor I fall

 

day 26

 

Thank you and everyone for motivation! I promise to try harder to leave The Mordor.
So, Day 2.

 

Checking in. Fell again yesterday. Sucks but I'm starting to reach that point where I can truly feel how much I hate porn again, and the willpower is growing that I can see breaking through the four day chaser barrier. Things I can get done in the same amount of time I spend PMO, that build me up rather than tear me down:
1. Super hard workout
2. Practice guitar
3. Woodwork
4. Call old friends and talk with them
5. Take my dog out and see her happy
6. Study chinese
7. Read and listen to podcasts
8. Clean the house
9. Ride the trainer
10. Journal
11. Cook
12. Wim Hoff and Cold Shower
13. Meditate

A while back my brother got me a Lord of the Rings bookshelf diorama, that needs a lot of patient care to put together. Tonight I'm going to put on some chill lo-fi and build that, as a recommitment to my sobriety and this challenge.
Be well everyone

 

Checking in on Day 24!

 

only to make children!! Cheers!!