BEAT YOUR LONGEST STREAK

Day 57

 

Day 6/22

 

Keep it up bro

 

13/21 Back in the teens!

 

Sorry to hear about that. Sounds like a small set-back though. Get back on the saddle and keep going. Worst thing you can do is give in and go back to the dark side so to speak. You've gained more than you've lost.

 

If I summarise - I looked into some Olympics and stuffs, then some body transformation videos, then went to a video by a sexologist and lastly the one having advice by a dating coach. Then it was a relapse. Mind is really being controlled by YouTube suggestions, watch history. Looking at the history I feel how cluttered my choices are and YouTube shows up all kinds of novel videos. It is similar to novel porn videos my mind is trying to seek to get the dopamine rush.
Steps I am going to take:

1. Meditate
   
2. block YouTube.

Not really feeling down due to relapse but lack of clarity in other areas in life is causing brain fog these days (Addiction to YouTube is one big reason).

Totally agree.
I identified that I am acting like voyeur. Through my windows which has a dark glass pane, I usually look into the outside windows. I have covered two of the panes today with a paper so that I don't look into neighbors windows where they usually leave their undies to dry. It is not pleasant to see them, but rather acts as a trigger.

A lot of tasks need to be done.
1. I prepared my lunch sometime ago, so better eat my lunch and take some rest.
2. Cleaning the house.
3. Completing the pending tasks at work.
4. Meditate.

Nothing much I can do in this area. I have got a friend whom I can meet over the weekend. Other days, I can only interact a little with the shopkeepers, folks at gym. I am still working from home, so interaction with co-workers are not going to happen much. Deep down mind is seeking a female partner and want to get intimate. But meeting new people and getting to know them is looking tough. Earlier I had consulted a psychologist and he had pointed out loneliness to be something I should deal with. Probably I should embrace my loneliness for some more time and change my mindset using affirmations and meditation and pray to Lord for making me stronger mentally and physically.

Totally agree. May be I should change my mindset with meditation and positive daily affirmations to extinguish the triggers.

Thank you Jefe for highlighting a lot of points here. Tbh, I am not feeling that low anymore. I relapsed last night and by today afternoon things seem to be under control. I will make the best decisions I can to stay in the path of NoFap.

 

I will be vigilant and not let my mind trick me into another relapse. I have actually noticed that my voice has become deeper these days. And that's definitely a gain.

 

@LongWayToGo blocking YouTube sounds like a plan, there’s a program called Cold Turkey for computers that does the job

 

I'm in,

4/95, no PMO

 

463/730 days no PMO, semen retention

 

Thanks for suggesting @PrioritySystem! I will definitely try that out.

 

0/15

 

0/95...

 

Day 7/22

 

And here starts the counter
1/207

 

14/21

 

16/100

My conversations felt super confident today. Definitely something I always notice a few weeks into NO PMO. Imagine what it would be like for the rest of your life.

 

464/730 days no PMO, semen retention

 

Day 59