The Lord of the Rings Challenge

65 days.

Another long day with work yesterday, and with the urges kept in check. Starting to have a slightly soar throat, hope it won't develop into something more annoying.

 

I made it to day 5 without much of an issue until today. Got some bad news and just got a little too anxious about stuff, I handled it pretty healthily until I stayed up too late. Darn, next time I must strive to be better! Day 0 starts now

 

387 days dwarf king
463 days no PMO, semen retention

 

35 days – You enter the cold Misty Mountains, the Hithaeglir.
The Hithaegllir. Yes cold misty mountains. Feeling well. Did my workout in morning then cold shower, have little bit more urges today as I had to move today in a place where I saw many pretty girls and I controlled myself because I know If I'll focus more I'll fall as Still I am little bit weak. There was also some stress of work today but I am managing it. I am trying to staying away from negativity. So remaining all things going good feeling a real happiness after a long time with the feeling of satisfaction too.

 

Day 20

 

Relapsed. Starting at day 0.

Urges will be extremely high this 2-3 days.

This is how I relpased:
I wasn't working out, neither meditating. I don't go out much, and since lockdown I have been working from home. However, I was dedicating a lot of my time to my day job and couple of other important things that I've been working on. Day 69 and it was clear, either I was suppose to frequent the gym, some form of extensive body movement, some way to sublimate the sexual energy, or I let go. My body would be stiff, and the sleep quality was just terrible. I thought it was time to ejaculate, for I don't have the interest nor the time to work on my body and engage in workout or yoga. I telapsed consciously, then after a pause of a day, urge had me. I downloaded an adult porn game and edged for hours to finally come.
Don't know what I need to learn from this, but it's a reset for now. Hope I can make it through the next 3 days. I should be able to.

Oh also, I was extremly arrogant. Something I tend to struggle with.

I'm putting this here so it may benefit others. I'd highly welcome criticsm and inputs on what I did wrong. That'd in turn help me.

Next 3 days will be tough.

 

It‘s not bad, bro. Stuff like that happens, it‘s revovery: step after step.
Nontheless I must tell you, such things make us fall - sooner or later. Don‘t be sad for the „stain“ on your otherwise clean streak but be very careful!

 

My orc likes pleasure and comfort over everything else. But something in his heart made him leave the comfort of his hometown. So now he‘s traveling alone and today he has run out of food. For at least three days he can not eat and drink as he is used to.
[Fasting: only healthy food if any …]

 

Got triggered earlier because I found a mag, when clearing out a friend's house, which I dumped. Fished when I got home but still have not fallen - gonna go for a cycle now - pray for me bros. As I said I will M before I look at P again.

 

daily checking in
I don't have intentions to go back to pm


I am avoiding the p-sub too , if i ignore inclusive that, i will not scale to watch P or do M.

 

Day 164 no PMO.

 

Day 4

Big day tomorrow, if i beat tomorrow, it'll be my longest streak

Nervous and Excited

 

Back to Day 0, Nagzūl again

 

Gods forgive me, while I didn't masturbate today I did watch porn for reasons beyond me, I must return to Dol Guldur again

 

day 29. I'm very close to the elven village. tomorrow will be my farthest

 

Checking in. Staying offline as much as possible today