The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Day 6

Doing all right, trying to reestablish some good habits. I was rather lazier today than I would have liked, but did do a couple things. I think tomorrow I'm going to try bicycling to my office.

 

393 days

 

4 days

 

25 days – You spend the night at the old Watchtower of Amon Sûl. PMO forces are lurking in the area.

I feel fairly safe from the PMO forces lurking nearby. I saw some material that should have been triggering today, but it didn't really trigger me that much. I feel no risk of relapse.

 

Good for you! Just know that even though PMO forces are giving you a rest, they might just get ready for a bigger attack, call upon the Elves, for strength and support!

 

77 days.

Was nervous about a big thing related to work yesterday, and realised that I have used PMO to calm down my emotions in the past. In this new lifestyle of mine, I will have to face the intense emotions instead when they arise.

 

Sure brother! Thanks for your advice.

 

DAY 17 TUESDAY.

 

399 days dwarf king
475 days no PMO, semen retention

 

Day 4,

Already really struggling.

Have not decided about the whole M question. In the end, even NoFap is not the end goal but just a way to get to a life that I would be happy living. So I must balance my need to be completely safe from PMO and the need to rebuild my life with my girlfriend. Because I do want to have sex with her and to have an active and good love life. And if my decision not to M would hurt our relationship that would still suck.

On some level the best thing I can think of right now is to find the middle ground. Telling her that I would M as much as I want while at the same time try and M as little as possible.

And yes, life is hard and I want to be free and I want it to be faster

 

Checking in.

 

Day 176 no PMO. Found out yesterday my 11yo has Covid. Wasn’t fun to hear but she is doing fine so far and we are leaning into the idea that “God has a plan” for us.

I also saw a woman at the store with her gym cloths on and I bounced my eyes and stayed looking away from her even though she was near me for a very long time in line.

 

Yes, I agree. My situation is that, to this day, I couldn’t stop both behaviors: neither pmo nor mo. I only made "streaks". I tried to avoid all sexual acts and I tried to take it easy with mo and still get rid of my p addiction. My observation is that MO happens very easily and doesn't necessarily trigger pmo use later on, but it can.
Well, I'm a little bit tired of the "MO discussion". Anyways I will try to abstain from both for this challenge. Others can do it so I should be able to do it too! But in case I reset for M it's crucial that I keep my p-streak.

Going strong on day 2, by the way.

 

Day 32

 

Hi there! As a rule of thumb I'd say: better listen to important people in your real life rather than to people in an online forum.
About the "M question" - if you say, you don't abstain from M bc of what your therapist suggested, it doesn't mean you need to do M as a sport now. You can still train to use M less frequent. Some addicts try the so-called mindful masturbation which focus more on the body, feelings and being intimate with oneself than on fantasizing.
On the other hand, I think it should be possible to "M as little as possible" while NOT pressuring your girlfriend in the relationship. Maybe what the therapists and girlfriend want is that you don't put a lot of pressure on yourself which results in frustration and negative vibes ... just guessing here.
Ok, I have to go to have a mel now.
I hope you find a good balance!

 

Stay strong brother.
I hope she'll kick covid's ass really fast

 

Day 47
Feeling good. Same routine followed. Very less urges today.

 

Ok, I understand in that particularly case.

 

Day 14, last day before starting the journey to Mordor!
I feel great