The Lord of the Rings Challenge

480 days SR
51 days no sex

No more girls, then a new girl appears

When I broke up with my last girlfriend almost two months ago the next day I met a beautiful girl who approached me first, I broke up with this beautiful girl too this week then a girl I know and like a lot just texted me yesterday.
I used to think is coincidence but I believe my energy simply becomes open to meet with new girls, it seems women can sense this and approach to me again. But I also believe I’ve been plain lucky this last months, nothing is more easy for forgetting a girl than having a new girl, and it just happens I meet a new girl right after I broke up with the last one.

This girl just texted me yesterday, we randomly write to each other emojis, just emojis kind of teasing each other in a naïve and fun way. But yesterday we talked a bit, she is only 20 years old, she is very attractive, the thing is she lives like 2-3 hours away from me, that is why I never tried anything with her.
Yesterday she told me she got done a little of liposuction on her waist, I mean she is already stunning I didn’t see the need for the surgery but damn now she is super-hot. I told her if it is painful? She told me it is, especially the massages. I was just talking friendly with her, and then she told me:

-Can I ask you something- she said
- Sure- I replied
- Why I always want to have sex?

I mean what type of question is that haha. I told her if it is only after surgery or all the time she is like this. I already knew she likes sex a lot, but I told her surgery is a stressful event and sex is a stress reliever and I offered myself to calm her suffering haha. She agreed.

Then we talked about tantric sex, how it can improve your health and pleasure as a women, I can’t believe this has work so many times, even do I simply talk about it, women really seem interested in tantra when I mention it. This girl hasn’t had sex in many months, she is not slutty so probably I’ll have to talk to her a bit more, maybe even a relationship to have sex. Also who knows how she wakes up today, maybe she changed her mind during sleep, girls change their minds a lot and easily. Also I’m not a big fan of traveling, so long term is not a possibility, but we are kind of like friends and sure sex will help her to relieve some of the post-surgery pain and also calm the need to have sex. So I’m a bit open to it if she wants to do it, I also like her energy and personality, lets see how this continues. Right now, I’m going to try talking a bit with her something not sex related and if she feels like talking about sex again or wants to do it, I’m ready for the battle, always aware ,opportunities happen when you least expected so always be ready.

 

It's a day of very bad urges for me. Probably due to phone call yesterday, I guess in the past I would have relapsed already,but I remembered that my last 120 days streak ended up about this time as well as @crazyhorse11 post saying that Lord doesn't test us beyond our ability to pass....I've come to it at last the great battle of my time...Osgiliath still stands but bloody shrieks of the Nazgul dragon makes me feel the wound of the Morgul blade.

 

day 46- elf

 

That's very true brother
I have also found from my experience that If I could avoid peeking than I can easily avoid a relapse.
We often misunderstand fishing and peeking as not so harmful and not a big problem. But they are the starting points if we can detect them then dealing with them is easier than it becomes when you go on following it to the relapse.

 

Checking in
Today was a great day.
Spent time with my family.
And no urges at all as I was out to my relatives.
I enjoyed it a lot today

 

Well. For myself, that practice has lead me down to relapsing again in the past. Which is my main reason for not wanting to do it. I've told myself the same thing "let's just see... see if it still works" but I found that I was really just lying to myself.

Be careful with what you see and tell yourself is what I'd say.

 

Day 52
Feeling little bit sad. Idk why but when I take break from my workout I feel sad I think still there is hormonal imbalance in my mind. But I know it is for short time so I have to control on it. So now after very sadness feeling I am feeling better.

 

Day 22
Outside the Prancing Pony!

“Who knows? Have patience. Go where you must go, and hope!”

 

I had no idea you had tips and strategies at the bottom of your signature! Somehow I completely missed this! I am really sorry about it too. I wished I had read it sooner, there was so much you said that would have saved me time and heartache I think. I read all of your first two posts and I'll be referring to them regularly.

Thank you for your time and insightfulness. I believe I agree with every word you wrote and I think it all rang genuine and true.

@Krishna Das I'd check out @RiseToGreatness signature too for some good advice, knowledge, and warning lol.

 

I'm on day 7!!!

It's about to be a week!!! I'm super stoked. At this point, I feel I'd rather castrate myself than PMO today. I want that damn fountain pen haha.

Yesterday we had family over, so it wasn't too bad I was busy hanging out with them, but I didn't get the work done that I wanted. Which is a bummer. Hopefully today, but idk my sister is coming to visit too. We shall see.

Urges lurk at every corner and I've been distracting myself with work and hanging out with family. Gotta stay strong.

 

Today is day 19, I feel great.
Currently on chapter VII - In the house of Tom Bombadil. Will try to make it to Bree by tomorrow

 

I relapsed again today. I don't what to do ,but I am not giving up. I feel like its all over for me.