P at work got me suspended...

Addiction clouds the mind and impairs proper thinking! That’s why it’s important to fight against porn and other addictions!

 

That's harsh. I think a warning would have been enough.
Was the content illegal? Or did they suspend you just because it was porn?

 

Bro, the only advice I can give you is to do nofap/semen retention immediately.

Besides that, if you have to do it let me tell you how I used to do it before, I've jerked off while doing internships, I've done it at school, outside and anywhere you can think of.

The main thing you need to be aware of is if the urge strikes and you can't resist then be smart and use your phone to watch porn, make sure you're using mobile data and not any available wifi if you're not at home, excuse yourself to the bathroom, make sure you lock the door and then rub one out quickly, of course don't have any sound on when you're watching the porn, I would've thought this stuff is obvious but apparently it's not for some people.

If you're going to do it, atleast don't be a fucking idiot.

 

Honestly if i were you and wanted to kick the porn addiction, working it on a work computer and being suspended would be a low point for me. And any time afterward that i would think about watching porn I would remember the consequences and the might help you to quit. I believe if you remember the low points that's the key to quitting because you don't want to feel like that again

 

First, this is a really tough thing to happen to you. I feel really bad for you.
However . . . it is a massive wake up call for you. Let's face it, using a work computer to check out porn is basically asking to be caught.
You can make this the turnaround event in your life if you go for it.
I wouldn't bother talking too much about your "addiction" to these folks. They won't get it. I would imagine the best you can say is you were very wrong and you understand that you've let a lot of people down, including yourself.
I hope you get the help you need and deserve.

 

P while your working in a school, suspension is the best that could have happened! You need to go hardmode, and it wont be easy, sorry, not gonna sugar coat it - but, it's also not going to be easy because you work in IT. As do I, I work in front of a computer 15 hours a day, 5 - 6 days a week and I work from home and to top it all off I live alone! So I know what your going to be battling against, however there is hope! For 7 days (we'll make the goal short, then you add another week, etc), your gonna abstain from PMO, and your gonna study your IT stuff - assuming your doing a course while being an apprentice - use something like Cold Turkey to block P sites from your computer, also have a look at Taming your computer and Phone.

It will be tough, but the rewards from it out weight the squirt of dopamine you get, which will last a millisecond maybe 2. Should also think about your job, it can be very hard to get hired if you have things like P hanging over your name. Especially in the IT industry, we are given "god mode" (we have access to everything), so Management need to know that we can be trusted, and we wouldn't jeopardise the security of a network.

If your struggling with hardmode, writing a journal here makes a massive difference. Everyone here, has gone though what your going to be... and if your struggling with IT, you can pm me if you want.

Also, check out the nofap challenges, it makes it easier to know others are fighting right along side you

Stay strong

 

Hey, I know it probably feels shit now but you’ve experienced how horrible PMO addiction can be. Hopefully you can use this experience to get serious about quitting P. Stay strong.

 

Best advice, your gonna have to tell them that due to your addiction, you have decided to leave the job, in order to work on your self. They will find anything & everything to use against you, and it will build up. Leaving, and telling them that your working towards cleaning your self up and removing the addiction. Will go along way in your future.

I had an engineer 5 years ago (I don't bring it up, cos I was the one that had to go through all the shit he downloaded, and I still get nauseous), who was using company hardware to download "stuff" (not just P, movies, music, etc and the P was illegal). A few months later, I got a call from another firm asking me to vouch for him, the guy only worked for me for 3 weeks and those 3 weeks were used to download illegal stuff - as soon as I honed in our security system to look at his activity, I had 3 weeks, every hour downloading content. If I recall correctly he had 2-3 terabytes of data... - Obviously I asked the person who called me, who they were, and who they worked for, turned out to be a primary school (5-11 yo), I organised local police, myself and the person into a meeting and we went through everything... long story short, the guy was put on the register as being a pedo, and is currently doing 5 years.

I'm not saying you were looking at illegal P, far from it! But looking at P in a school... outside of people understanding P addiction wont understand the addiction itself and the eventual progression towards more extreme (which can take years, and years - it is an eventual progression towards that genre, some are more inclined to wards it, and it not being for a shock value... it's how they are inclined... still makes me wanna cut their balls off with a buttering knife) etc. They will however, voice that you were engaged with illegal activity and or installations. P in the IT world, can mean anything, and the vast majority of people (not understanding the addiction) when they hear "P in a school" there's only one type that will cross their mind!

You need to apologies, and leave that job, that is the best course of action.

 

Holly SHit Man !!!!! GotDang !!!!!! be carful so that guy dosen't get out of jail and come seeking revenge from you !!!!!!!

 

You got terribly unlucky mate, but there is no reason to worry about the job as long as you are healthy and your head works you can get plenty of work to sustain yourself. The bad thing is PMO destroys your health as well as ability to concentrate and think clearly which are basic requirements in everything you do which has any value in it. To quit the addiction you have to study addiction and the ways to recover, practice them diligently and pray. Hope your life will become better which is quite inevitable if you improve yourself.

 

Dang Broosky !!! in 2016 i was working in an office on a computer in a hotel , and i watched porn on the work comuter , they had blockers , like google didn't open anythin that had the word porn or sex in it or other sexual words , but i found a way around the system , i used to watch porn on Tumblr , and not just pictures , like full clips , and also Vimeo , but yeah , hope all goeas well for you bro !

 

Unlikely, pedos in prison don't last long...

 

Dam !!! this story is crazy !!!

 

This is crazy. Never do it again. And I would leave that job, and that area. Your reputation if sullied because of this, could prove disastrous in the future